3.
The next few weeks he tried to forget the incident, but the more he ignored it, the more he thought of her. He would sit in judgements, distracted, looking over to his sisters guiltily.
He continued to play adventurer, but he would look up periodically to the Tower, and very occasionally see her peering out, but he never caught the same attention, and she was no longer giving him that addictive, heart felt smile. It broke his heart.
He knew what he had to do. He approached his sister Anna, the younger of the two and two years his senior, with a weak, nervous approach.
"Anna....I have a request of you and I hope you listen and don't laugh at me".
"Christopher, you and I both know things are better when we don't speak much".
Friends as young children, he had imposed his power over her before he was king, in order to impress others. He admonished her openly and she resented him. But this would not deter him.
"I know we've not always been friendly, but I'm sorry. You're my sister and I look up to you. Please help me. I'll be good."
She saw a side in him she hadn't seen for a long time, and felt pity, although she was reluctant to admit it.
"What is you want? If I do something for you you have to do something for me."
He looked relieved but apprehensive.
"We have a deal. "
"So ask!"
He cleared his throat.
"I...need a doll. Do you have any of your old dolls I can play with?"
She thought of all the ways he would defile one of her old toys.
"Oh no, no you don't. You will stab her or burn her. No way."
"No, I promise. I will...play with her. I want to play dolls. I can't explain it right now."
She flashed a smile, then it disappeared, trying not to giggle and to appear aloof. "Try me."
He remembered Eva's instruction. He could not tell her who asked him to do it.
"I...haven't been the nicest to girls. I just think it's time I tried to understand them a little is all, if I'm going to be the King to them."
"Makes some sense. Okay. My instruction is simple. I will give you a dolly, and you wont let her out of your sight. She will be your best friend. That is my condition."
His stomach churned. But he missed Eva so much, and her logic was flawless. Either become a stabbing, warring Inquisitor type, or learn a different path.
"...okay."
"Say 'yes Miss Anna I promise to look after my new dolly, keep her entertained, fed, dress her up and smother her with hugs and kisses.'"
He scoffed.
"I'm not saying that!"
She gestured to close the door, he panicked.
"Yes Miss Anna. I promise to look after my new dolly, keep her entertained, fed, dress her up and smother her with hugs and kisses!"
She led him into her huge, lavishly adorned pastel coloured chambers, over to her old toys. He looked on with horror.
"I'm so proud of you. Don't let this be the last you ever try more girlish things okay? Now which one....""
She picked up a purple gowned, blond Princess with very long hair.
"What will you call her?"
"What did you call her?
"Oh no, it's up to you. She's your best friend now."
He thought on, this was seemingly a big decision judging by Anna's desperate look.
"Uhm...Elizabeth?" He mentioned the name of his late mother.
"Perfect! well you take Elizabeth and remember, if you don't look after her, you've broken a promise and I get to punish you okay? Give her a hug and kiss!"
He took the doll, and guiltily kissed her on the lips and hugged her.
"Oh Christopher. We are going to be such good friends again!" She looked ecstatic.
With that she closed her door, and he retreated with mixed emotions. Shame and humiliation were coupled with a satisfaction not only that it was over but that soon he would once again have Eva's favour.
He knocked on the tower door. No answer. He knocked again. Again, no answer. She was there, but she was not answering.
Then he realised. She didn't know yet. He retreated to his bedroom for the night. and tucked in his dolly into his bed just in case his sister came in.
4.
The morning's judgements were shallow and quick. He got a lot of looks for having the doll with him, but he was the King, and his advisers no longer had the bravery even to ask after firing the others so readily. Some ladies of he court asked him why he carried it, and he gave them the same story he gave his sister, which seemed to excite and delight them. A king that cared for their needs. In this deeply patriarchal kingdom, this was a first. Maybe, just maybe, they could start to grow.
After lunch, he brought his dolly to the courtyard, and hugged and kissed her. He played with her. Taking her along on adventures, and dressing her and talking to her like his imaginary friends. Eva still did not appear, to his frustration. He could see servants, gardeners and maids watching on curiously, but as king, it didn't matter.
It took two days of this before she was back on her balcony. Did she notice him? He could not tell, and she did not answer him.
The next day, he was more audible. swooning over his pretty friend and talking girlishly to her. Eva looked down and gave him that winning smile, mouthing "keep it up sweetheart!". He figured he had to keep it going for a while as when he knocked, she still did not answer.
But he began to enjoy his plays with Elizabeth, and never left her anywhere, his attachment grew. Eva every day would come out and watch and smile, and it took two weeks before one day, with her beautiful matronly smile she beckoned him up.
He daintily walked over to her tower nervously.
"Well well well, here you are. I am so glad you listened to me sweetie".
He was used to being honoured with titles, but did not care one iota that Eva talked down to him somewhat.
"I wanted to see you Eva".
"And here I am. It's so wonderful you've learned to spend quality time with your pretty little dolly. I can tell you love her."
He was clutching her close, instinctively.
"What's her name?"
"Elizabeth."
"So pretty. See? Being kind and sensitive and good is better isn't it? To be like your friend Eva not your nasty enemies?"
Her logic was flawless.
"Yes Eva."
"My little prince is wise!"
She walked over and gave him a long loving kiss, his heart stopped.
"Wonderful boy. Sweet boy.
I was just doing my dishes, would you mind helping me?"
He looked puzzled.
"I'm sorry, I'm not supposed to do chores. I have maids do that for me."
"You're not allowed? The king is banned from doing something? Does that sound right to you?"
He thought hard at that.
"No, but..." He shrugged.
"If you are in charge you make the rules lovely".
"...you are right Eva."
"So would you like to help me with the dishes my little prince?"
"Yes Eva."
And so she had the king and most powerful person in the whole country helping her with her dishes, a good starting point she thought.
"You know my little prince, this is so wonderful. My chores are going so swiftly. I do so enjoy being around you, don't you think?"
"Yes Eva."
"I want to see you more often, but I have lots of chores to do. Why don't you come up here as soon as you've done your duties every day and help me with my chores, then you can play with your dolly without people watching you. That would be nice wouldn't it?"
He was infatuated, and couldn't say no to her.
"yes Eva. I'll help you do your chores."
She beamed, dried off her hands, and scooped him up in her arms twirling him around in an embrace.
"Oh my little prince, we will have such fun together!"
5.
He could no longer really concentrate in his mornings, his advisers gave him trite advice and his sisters would sit in with him as he asked them, and a bond was growing. He had begun to respect women more, and their council was becoming more necessary and sought after. Indeed, sometimes the judgements were theirs and he merely consented. This was a first. But spending time with Eva gave him a new level of respect for females and he was willing to defer if their judgements were sound.
He would only look forward to his time spent with his beloved Eva.
He would go right up after court, she would let him in and lock the door, and then together they would do her chores. Then he would play about with his doll and a few of hers, childishly, while she hummed thinking of all the possibilities. She would take it slow of course. She could wait. And he would love every second even if no boy would ever take her "gifts" if offered cold. She introduced a few more toys as the weeks went on, and he became more docile and friendly.
She started off neutral but would give him "helpful pointers" that became somewhat more directive as time went on, and he began to get used to obeying her instructions. He, the king, she, a mother figure he could not do without.
One day, after dusting, she introduced a pinafore, frilly and feminine. It was to spare his maids constantly washing his regal garb after his chores, so she said, but in reality, it was to prepare him for what was to come.
His sisters loved the change in him, as he had become soft and sensitive towards them, indeed they became more assertive around him to get their way, but his advisers were becoming increasingly concerned and were busy investigating his changes but as far as they were concerned, his excursions to the Old Tower were something they could not penetrate and Eva was a protected species.
They had to be discreet, as the boy was becoming increasingly reliant on his friend, and increasingly distant from them.
One day they were polishing some female statues on a large table, he did not know it was an altar to her Goddess, to him they were ornaments. He was being careful and Eva was also polishing away, it was their intimate time. Eva, distracted by her little King's cute babble, accidentally knocked off one of her statues.
"Oh my Goddess!"
This was a calculated comment, but it took the head of the country's church by surprise.
Up until this point, he had believed her story in court, and it took him aback.
"G...Goddess?"
She gave an innocent, playful look, one which suggested they were playing hide and seek and had been caught rather than any real guilt.
"Oops!" Sheepish, playful. Unserious.
"You lied to me!" He was cross, offended, but still utterly infatuated. "You are an unbeliever!"
She had to play this carefully. If she pushed him away now, he might not be able to protect her from outside forces.
"My darling. I am not an unbeliever. I just believe in something else. I am truly sorry I could not tell you the truth, but how could I??
Tyrus was there. All his guards. Did you want me killed? Did you want your friend killed?"
She was tearful.
"No, but I would protect you..."
"From him? Not even you can from the church. They are not like you. The church is not gentle and soft like you. They have an army. They torture and kill people if they do not believe. I would not have left that court alive!"
"But you lied....to me...." He was upset, and sulking. She knew he was where she wanted him.
"My darling, I could not bring you into this. You are so sweet and gentle. I could not risk people coming at you because you learned the truth. You are the head of religion in this country, you have a responsibility. You could change everything because the nation must believe what you do. If I told you the truth and you took it outside, people may come at you. I could never risk harm to you!"
She had framed this very carefully. She left him in no doubt that she knew some truth, and she knew of all people, she was the one whose council he held most highly now. She had guided and moulded him for the better, and was proud of it. She loved him, not as a king but as a submissive little male who adored her. He would want to know the truth, and he would consider it.
"I wouldn't need to take it out of here! I could have just at least known!" he sobbed.
"But you are the head of your church, it would be so unfair to you. I love you my sweet darling, but I cannot bring you into this! Please, forget I said anything."
"Eva I would like to know the truth!"
"You are not ready for it my darling. It is not what you want to hear."
She made him believe he was the one who wanted her to tell, and she was reluctant, not the other way around.
"I want the truth. Please Eva. Please."
"Okay..." She drew a breath, her nerves mostly holding. This was an important moment.
"A long time ago, our country believed in the Goddess. A wise, kind, all powerful being, Motherly, like i am to you. Sensitive. She guides us, she makes us better than we would be."
This was not too much to take in.
"But that is like the Great Father is it not? Our God?"
She smirked.
"No dear. Of course not. Your holy father conquered whole countries, and demands aggression, strength and hatred to outsiders. You have seen it yourself! Those boys I steered you away from, the fighters, the killers, they are your God's sons."
He gave a puzzled look.
"So what was it like before?"
She gave an innocent smile. This would be a hard sell.
"Well....we had a happier society. But women were in charge. The Goddess, she knew, women are better leaders. We are better at coming to conclusions which evade violence. The Goddess elevated us. Men were happier back then, they obeyed their wives and Mistresses. They were born inferior, but they managed better because of it. Things were kinder. Like me. Not harsh, like the Inquisitor. Our Goddess, she saw to it, she protected us all. We still needed to protect ourselves, but the women were warriors, and men stayed at home to tend to their hunky Mistresses gently when they returned, and there was a lot less fighting overall."
His mind was full of questions, but her beauty had helped him get over the initial shock.
"So were there Kings like me?"
She shook her head.
"Only Queens. Boys could be princes, they would be married off to a Queen. Sometimes more than one Prince to a Queen." She giggled. Trying to keep it light.
"So if you believe this, you can't believe in me as a King can you?"
He was looking for some compliment, some kind of happy pandering answer.
She gave him one.
"Well...for a boy you are not so bad. But I've always looked after you haven't I? My king you have been a wonderful ruler. Don't pay much heed to my beliefs. I am still me, and you are still you. The Goddess loves you, I promise."
This answer was evasive, because no, she did not believe in him as a king.
"So what changed Eva?"
He was hungry for her truth, used to trusting everything she said.
"Well a new movement sprouted up. Men could not handle not being the centre of attention, so designed a false religion around them, and used their aggression to change things. We call this the darkening."
They spent the rest of the day talking about The Goddess, her educator, him, hungrily asking. He did not quite understand or believe it fully, but Eva knew it was a matter of time because he loved her and had been embroiled in femininity for a year now.
And as the weeks went on, she introduced more of the Goddess into his life. by the end, Chief patriarch of the church was praying every night to the Mother Goddess for protection and kindness. Mission accomplished.