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Re: Forced Into Frillies and Frocks by Johnathan
« Reply #7 on: August 03, 2014, 04:23:56 PM »
Part 16

Barbara could not resist in coming over as we passed through 
reception, "Is baby Johnathan going for a little walk then" she said in the
tones  women used on babies. "Goo goo goo ga" I mumbled. "Mrs Johnson
wants something from  the chemists" Janet told her "it's only down the road
and as its such a nice  day, I thought Johnathan would like some fresh air"
"His mother did say he  didn't want to spend all day in the creche" Barbara
smiled. "Apparently two of the  girls in Johnathans old class have just started
working there, so we can kill two  birds with one stone" Janet told her "I can
get his mothers things and he can meet  some of his old school friends".

I writhed against my restraints trying to get  out of the buggy, this was too
much, I didn't care if I got a thrashing, I wasn't  going outside in the baby
carriage wearing nappies. "Look he's so happy he's jumping  for joy"
Barbara howled. "I'd better not dissapoint him then" Janet laughed  loudly
pushing me towards the glass doors which slid silently open. I was trapped. I 
threw Jemima to the ground and spat out my dummy, "THTOP, THTOP I
DONT WANT TO GO TO THE THOPS" I wailed. "Your only drawing
attention to yourself Johnathan" Janet said pushing Jemima into my arms,
"I'll forgive this  little tantrum, but if this dummy comes out again or you
utter one more word  you will suffer" she rammed the dummy into my mouth
and off we went.

People  stared and laughed as we passed them in the street,
I suc-ked on my dummy  hugging Jemima for comfort, feeling like a
condemed man heading for execution.  We were soon outside the large
chemist, Janet pushed the door open and  pulled me in. It was so strange
viewing the shop from the buggy, everything looked  bigger from down
here, the shelves seemed higher, the people taller,  emphasising my baby
position.

It didn't take long to become the centre of attraction,  the female
shop assistants all crowding round to see the big baby in the pushchair. 
"What a cute baby", "Isnt she sweet", "What a lovely dress, doesn't it suit 
her", "I hope her nappy isn't' wet" were some of the laughing comments.
Janet removed my bonnet "Let the ladies see your curls, Johnathan" she said
making sure  everyone heared my name. "She's a boy" the crowd gasped "A
boy in a dress and  nappy, I never" the remarks kept coming.

In the front of the crowd were two girls  I recognised, Sharon Collingwood and Mary Springer, they wore white coats  over their own clothes, as did the other shop assistants. "Johnathan" Sharon  said recognising me at last "Its Johnathan
Johnson" she screamed "he used to  be in our class at school" she told
everyone "he's sixteen, the same as us".  The two girls stepped forward
"Why are you in nappies Johnathan?" Mary asked "is  it some kind of charity
stunt". "Your friend is talking to you Johnathan"  Janet snapped. "Goo ga
goo ga goo" I burst into tears yet again. The shop  filled with laughter as
Janet told them why I was in nappies and a baby dress.

The  crowd dispersed "Serves him right" said one woman as she left "he must have  wanted to be turned into a baby, my Richard would never have let me near him  with a girls vest, never mind a nappy". The woman she was talking to agreed "He deserves all he gets, fancy letting his mother put him into a dress and  making
him wear a nappy" she laughed "and did you see his ringlets, so cute, you 
couldn't force a boy to sit and have his hair put into ringlets, he must want to 
be a girl".

Janet asked Mary if she could get her a large jar of cream for nappy 
rash as I had a very sore bottom from wetting my nappy so much. "Surely he
doesn't wet himself" Sharon said "he's sixteen, for goodness sake".
"Unfortunately  he does" Janet smiled "in fact this morning he even soiled
himself" "No!" Sharon  didn't believe her. "Its true, he was sat on my knee
having his bottle" Janet  went on "he could have asked me to take him to the
toilet, but he didn't. He chose  to dirty his nappy just like a baby" she lied.

When Mary came back with the cream  Sharon told her Janet's story, "He
was sat on her knee suc-king a babies bottle  and he pooed himself" she
laughed. "He's definitely going to need his nappy  rash cream then" Mary
howled. "Do you have baby changing facilities?" Janet asked  "I'm sure his
nappy will be wet, I could put some cream on him too". Mary  pointed to a
door with a baby sign over the top, "Can we come and watch, I'd love to  see
him have a nappy change" Sharon laughed. I was released from the buggy, 
Janet held my reins tightly in case I was tempted to run off, but where she 
thought I would go to dressed like I was god only knows.

We all crowded into the  small room, a solid looking shelf at one side served as a changing table, I  was much too big for it so Janet ordered me to sit on the floor. Tears rolled  down my cheeks as my nappy was removed in front of the laughing
girls. "It must be so  humiliating" Mary observed "having to wear a nappy,
and then have it pulled off in  front of people". "Babies have no choice who
see's their bottom being changed, if  he chooses to wet his nappy, he will
have to suffer the indignaty of having  it changed in public".

They both gasped when they saw my false sex and asked if I  had been castrated. "Not yet" Janet giggled, showing them where my privates had  been put.  "His
wee-wee his safely tucked away for ever" Janet remarked as  she tucked a
clean nappy under my bottom. "Everyone knew he was a wanker at school"
Sharon told Janet. "Not any more" Janet laughed "I'm afraid  Johnathan will
never experience any sexual feelings ever again" "Well babies don't  do they'
Sharon laughed.

I was so relieved to be put back in the pushchair and  taken
back to the Studio, Janet did promise Mary and Sharon that she would take
me  back to see them in my little girl clothes, I had to wave to them as we left. 
Back in the creche I almost leapt into my playpen, I was so glad to be away
from  those laughing women. What a difference a few hours made, only a
short while  ago I resisted being put in the baby cage. The rest of the
afternoon passed,

I  played with my toys under Janet's strict supervision, I
had another bottle feed  with the other babies, fortunately baby Michael had
left earlier. Mother came to  the creche to collect me, "Goo goo goo ga" I
gurgled enthusiastically when I saw  her, I was surprised how happy I was to
see her. "Have you been a good little baby Johnathan?" she asked pulling me
out of the playpen. "Ga ga go ga goo" I continued to speak like a baby. "He's
been very a good girl" Janet told  her "he's been far less trouble than I
expected.

When we made Clive West into a  baby it took months before he
realised his situation was permanent, even now he  rebels every so often and
has to be punished" she put my bonnet on my head, "he  has only been in his
nappy a day and look at him, I'm sure he loves it".  Mother put me in the car,
she put the baby buggy into the boot. "Lesley can take you  to see your
football friends in your pushchair" she smiled before driving off.

Any  thoughts I had had about stopping my step-sister from humiliating me in front
of my  team mates disappeared, I knew once I was in the baby carriage I
would be  powerless to stop her, it was just humiliating experience to look
forward to.


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Re: Forced Into Frillies and Frocks by Johnathan
« Reply #8 on: August 03, 2014, 04:32:47 PM »
Part 17

 Their cruel plans to reduce me to little girlhood were  working all to
well, I was so pleased to be out of nappies I was almost smiling at my 
reflection as mother put me in the party frock and under pinnings I had worn
the day  before. Mother stood behind me and swished my rustling skirts
against my thighs,  she reminded me about Elizabeth and Pete's impending
visit. My heart dropped again, was there to be no respite from my constant
humiliation. "Pweath  mummy "

I lisped in my best voice, pressing my knees
together, hoping to please  her in acting so girlish, "I don't need a baby thiter,
I can wook after  mythelf". The picture I presented in the mirror was one of a
simpering little girl, totally  incapable of performing such a grown up act.
"How old are you Johnathan?" mother  asked in exasperation. "Thix
mummy" I lowered my long eye lashes and blushed  deeply. "What sort of a
mother would I be if I left such a sweet six year old on  her own" she
explained carefully as if talking to a real child "little girls like  you are not
capable of taking care of themselves are they Johnathan". "No mummy". 
"Who will put you on your potty or put you in your nappy and get you ready 
for bed, you cannot do it can you" she went on. "No mummy" my bottom lip
was  beggining to tremble. "See you are going to cry again" she pointed out
handing me a  tissue "you are a little girl Johnathan, you will have a baby
sitter, now be a  good girl and play on Mr. Neddy until the girls get home
from school".

She wiped my  tears, told me to blow my nose, then tucked a
little lacy handkercheif in my knicker  leg. "That is where little girls keep their
hankies" she told me "if you were  a boy you would have pockets, but your
not are you Johnathan?". "No mummy" I  snivelled. The pain in my groin
was not as intense as the day before as I rocked to  and fro looking out of the
bedroom window, once again I saw the school bus approaching, it stopped,
Lesley, Caroline and three other girls jumped  off.

Lesley pointed up at me, the children in the bus looked up at where Lesley  indicated and waved, I could see them laughing. I prepared myself for further  humiliation as the giggling girls ran up the stairs. "Here he is our little sister" Lesley  sneered dragging me from the rocking horse aand making me curtsey to her  friends. "This is his cot" she showed them my childish bed, "he has to go to bed at  6.30 every evening in his cot" she told them "and he has to wear a nappy so he  doesn't wet the mattress" she told her laughing audience.

They were shown all my  dresses, my little baby shoes, my dolls and my frilly drawers. "Pweath mith I  need a wee-wee" I had to say and I was put on my potty. I
was taken outside in  the garden where I was given instruction in curtseying,
my efforts were far  to clumsy for such a pretty girl I was told. I was given a
skipping rope and made  to recite nursery rhymes as they turned the rope.

Mother wheeled my buggy into the garden to show them and told Lesley and
Caroline they could take me out  in it whenever they wanted. We had a trial
run with me in the pushchair and  the laughing girls pushing me around the
garden. Their friends stopped for  tea, it caused great hilarity seeing me in a
highchair and using a toddlers  beaker.

Mother kept them further amused telling them about my day as a baby, how  I'd been breast fed and my trip to the chemist. The girls loved it,  Caroline's and Lesley's friends had to be forced to go home, they were told they could  visit any time they wished. Lesley and Caroline went to get changed for their  outing with their mother, I was put on the floor, in front of the television and  made to watch a "My Little Pony" video. Jemima was put in my lap, I had to sit with my  legs apart
and straight, just like a little girl. "Do not move a muscle" I was  warned and
left alone.

The video was almost finished when the doorbell rang. I felt  sick.
"I'll get it" Caroline's voice rang out. "Elizabeth, Pete do come in" I heared
her say "Johnathans in the lounge watching t.v.". I heared their steps behind
me  as the cartoon was just finishing, I felt my neck and face burn with 
embarresment. "Johnathan look who's come to see you" Elizabeth said. I
could not bring  myself to look round "Oh he's shy" she giggled "he's only a
little  girl Pete".  Elizabeth stepped over my outstretched legs and switched
the television off. She  looked down at me, her brown eyes twinkling with
evil intent. Pete joined her,  put his arm around her waist and looked at me,
shaking his head in disbelief. I knew  I was going to cry. They looked so tall,

I felt like a child as I looked up  and burst into tears. "He is such a cry baby
these days Pete" Elizabeth laughed taking  my dummy off the sideboard.
"Does the little girl want his dummy" Elizabeth  offered "is the big man
frightening you Johnathan". "Yeth mith " I squeaked. She  pushed it in my
lips. "He won't hurt you, stand up Johnathan and say hello to  your friend"
she ordered. I got to my feet, displaying my frilly bottom as I did,

I  put my hands behind my back "Hewwo Pete" I said. 'What a state to be in" he
laughed  "you great big fairy". He turned to Elizabeth "How could you go out
with  that" he sneered then kissed her full on the lips. "Oh Pete not in front of
the  little girl" she said. "Little giirls shouldn't be watching" he said "they
should be  playing with their dollies. You talk to your doll while Elle and me
do adult things  Johnathan, and let me hear you".

He embraced Elizabeth again, I was too embarresed and  jealous to say anything. "I thought I told you to talk to your dolly Johnathan" he  said angrily "perhaps I should spank your bottom for not doing as your told". He  grabbed my arm "No, no, let me go" I screamed "let me go", my skirts flying  everywhere as he easily
dragged me over to a chair. "What is going on here" mother  stormed in,
followed by Lesley and Caroline. Pete let my arm go, I stood there  sobbing,
rubbing my wrist, where Pete had grabbed me. "Johnathan was being a 
naughty little girl" Elizabeth said "he would not talk to his dolly when Pete 
told him to. Pete was going to spank him".

Mother turned to Pete "I'm sorry Peter, I will  not allow you to spank Johnathan with your bare hand" she said. She was the last  person I had expected to come to my rescue. "You can use a slipper though" she  laughed. Every one cheered as I broke down and cried. Pete sat on a chair, mother handed him the hard soled slipper. "Come over here little girl, I am  going to spank you" Pete said. "Go on Johnathan, go to Uncle Peter and ask him to  punish you for being a naughty little girl" mother ordered "and don't forget to  curtsey".

I could feel all their eyes on me as I minced over to my worst enemy, I  swallowed hard, took my skirts in my fingers and curtseyed in front of him. "I have been  a vewy naughty wittle girl" I said in a high pitched whisper "pwease could you  spank my bottom Uncle Peter". I curtseyed again. "With pleasure Johnathan" he  laughed "over uncle's knee little girl". I lowered myself across his denim clad  knees whimpering. I felt my skirts being lifted out of the way, he grasped me 
tightly, then I heared the slipper cut the air as he brought it down on my frilly 
knickers. WHAK,WHAK,WHAK.

I screamed as each blow fell on my unprotected bottom. He pushed me to the floor when he had finished, I lay there crying, a  blubbering wreck, my masses of skirts all awry. "GET UP, JOHNATHAN" mother shouted "your showing everyone your frillies, even little girls need to learn  not to show their pretty panties off, especially when there are boys present". She  adjusted my dress "Now thank Uncle Peter for
punishing you and tell him you will be  a good little girl from now on" she
ordered. I stood in front of the boy I  hated, ribbons in my hair, wearing a
dress, sobbing heavily, "Fank you for my spanking,  Uncle Peter, I'll be a
good wittle girl".

He grinned, he knew exactly what it  meant to me to have to
submit to him in this humiliating way. "We are going now"  mother
announced "see you are a good little girl for Aunty Elizabeth and Uncle  Peter
or you will regret it tomorrow" she warned, pushing my dummy in my
mouth to  stop me crying. "Yeth mummy, I'll be a good wittle girl" I wailed.
"You go  and enjoy yourselves" Elizabeth smiled pulling me onto her knee
"he'll be fine  with us". "I've made his bottle and his nightie is all ready on
his cot" mother told  her, she kissed my forehead, "Nighty-night Johnathan",
then they were gone.

This was the moment I had dreaded, being left alone
with my ex-girlfriend and Pete.  "You are absolutely pathetic Johnathan" he
sneered "how could you let them do  this to you, you big pansy", he pulled
me off Elizabeth's knee and grabbed my crutch.  "Elle tells me you have a
fanny now that you're a girl", he tore down my  knickers, I was powerless to
stop him. "Look at that", he laughed "you've got no balls,  you're a girl".
Only a few weeks ago I was capable of beating him in a fight, but  now due
to the drugs, humiliation and spankings I had been given, I was reduced to 
pleading for his mercy, like a little girl. "Pweath Uncle Peter wet me go" I 
wailed. He revelled in my situation. "You're a disgrace to the male sex,
allowing  yourself to be dressed in girls clothes" he sneered "I'm going to
make sure you will  never be male again".

Elizabeth went to the nursery, she returned carrying a  bundle of clothes, "I can't wait to put him in a nappy" she laughed unfolding the  white terry nappy on the floor "bring him over here Pete". I stood with my head  bowed in shame as she stripped me in front of him, Pete laughed at my bright red  bottom and my lack of male organs. "He should have his prick cut off, not hid  under that plastic pussy" he said. "His mother mentioned a clinic close-by that she  might send him to"
Elizabeth told him. I sat on the nappy. "I'd love to see  him sent there" Pete
said. "So would I" Elizabeth laughed, "then he would be a  proper girl".
"Let's tell his mother we caught him wanking in his nappy" he suggested. 
"Would she believe us" Elizabeth was taken by the idea,

I listened horrified.  "She would if there was evidence" he said, he held up a condom, "I could put spunk in  this, then put it in his nappy, he wouldn't be able to get it out once I  sqeezed it in". "And I could help you fill that condom" she giggled lust in her eyes  "let's do it". I was left sitting on the open nappy, told not to move,
while they went  upstairs. Later they returned,

Elizabeth looked flushed her clothed in disaray,  Pete looked glassy eyed. "Look what Uncle Pete's got for you Johnathan" holding up  the condom, it now had thick semen in the end. "A real man's spunk  Johnathan, and it is going to get your balls cut off" he laughed sqeezing the contents  into the nappy. "Look at him just sitting there letting us do it" Elizabeth  laughed "even though he knows it will mean his
prick and balls will be removed". "You  would think he would put a bit of a
fight" Pete scoffed "there it is Johnathan  all soaking in and staining your
nappy".

I sat there watching the dark yellow stain  appear as the semen
soaked gradually in. "I still can't believe he didn't try to  stop us" Elizabeth
said as she pinned the nappy to me, making sure the stain was  in the most
incriminating place "he deserves to have a real fanny, in fact I  wish I was the
one cutting his manhood off, it would give me great satisfaction to  know I
actually castrated him". Pete hugged her and french kissed her. "You  cruel
bitch" he laughed. "It would be cruel to do it to a real man like you" she 
gasped "but not a fairy like him". Elizabeth finished dressing me, put me on
her knee  and fed me my bottle. "Whose going to have his balls cut off
Johnathan, whose going  to be a real little girl" she mocked as I suc-ked my
teat.

I made up my mind  there and then to run away. I didn't  know where
I'd go, I just knew I had to get away  from this house as soon as possible.
Tonight I would wait until it was dark and  just go. But the drugs in the milk
were taking effect, I could feel myself getting  weaker, I tried to stop
swallowing the liquid, Janet would have none of it. "Dwink all  your milky
up baby, then you will sweepy all the night" she sang. I was almost  asleep
when she put me in my cot. "Nighty-night Johnathan" Elizabeth raised the cot 
side. "STAY AWAKE, STAY AWAKE" my male subconcious screamed
"YOU HAVE GOT TO GET AWAY, STAY AWAKE". "Night-night Aunty
Ewizabeth" I heared a little girls voice say as I drifted into unconciousness.
"Sweet dreams  little girl" Elizabeth's voice echoed in my head.


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Re: Forced Into Frillies and Frocks by Johnathan
« Reply #9 on: August 03, 2014, 04:37:03 PM »
Part 18

The following day mother was fuming when she entered the 
nursery. I cowered in fear as she threw back my covers and dragged me out
of my  cot. I felt even weaker than the day before, my youthful strength all
gone.  "Elizabeth and Peter told me all about your disgusting behaviour" she
spat the words  out she was so angry. "No mummy it ith not twue, they are
lying. I.........." I  cried in panic only to be cut off in mid-sentence. "SHUT
UP JOHNATHAN, YOU WILL NOT SPEAK AGAIN UNTIL TOLD" she
yelled.

A huge dummy was pushed into my mouth and tied behind my neck.
"Elizabeth and Peter lying indeed" she  said "why on earth would they want
to do that". She was roughly pulling my frilly  plastic lined pants off me
"We'll see whose lying" she snapped ripping the wet nappy  off me, pins
flying everywhere. She examined the soggy garment. "So what is that  then
Johnathan" she pointed to the stain "scots mist". "Mmmmmm........" I  tried
to tell her what really happened. She pushed the wet nappy into my face.
"I've  never been so embarressed. A little girl like you playing with yourself"
she  pinned the wet nappy on my head and pulled my frilly knickers over it,
everything  went dark. "Well it will never happen again Johnathan. You are
going to regret  letting Elizabeth and Peter catch you."

I was led stumbling  downstairs and put  in my highchair. The girls laughed at my nappied head. Mother told them to  quieten down a little, she needed to use the phone. "Hello Barbara, this is  Monica Johnson, I'll be a little late this morning, and
Johnathan will not be  attending today". I could not make out what Barbara
said. "No nothing is wrong,  it's just that Dr. Moody has a cancellation, she
can fit Johnathan in this morning, so  I'll be taking him there first". Again I
couldn't hear what Barbara said, but I  could make out her laughter. "Yes
Barbara it does serve him right, tell Domonic  I'll be there about 11.30,
goodbye". I could not believe what I had just heared. "He's  going to be a
real girl" Lesley screamed "he's having the operation".

Mother  dragged me back upstairs, removed the nappy and my nightie and dressed me in a pink  baby outfit with matching knickers over my nappy, matching bonnet and pink immobilising mittens. My matinee jacket was buttoned on followed by the  reins. She removed my dummy gag and replaced it with my proper one.
"Come on  girls. Lets take your baby sister for his operation" mother
laughed. I  felt a  surge of fear as the door opened and seeing my chance
made a break for it "I HATE YOU,  I HATE YOU" I shouted as I ran away.
"Get him girls" her mother laughed.

I  could not run fast in the baby clothes and they easily caught me. I didn't  have the strength to fight them, my blows landing like powder puffs. "Come on  little sister" Lesley pulled me back to the car and put me in the car seat. "There, all  buckled in safe and sound" she laughed "there is no chance of escape now Johnathan,  you ARE going to be a little girl".  I wailed and kicked my baby shoed feet.  "What a tantrum Johnathan" mother laughed as she drove off. "I DON'T WANT TO BE  A GIRL" I cried. "It's too late Johnathan" Lesley laughed "you should have  put up more of a fight and you might not have been in this position, but you  never" she sneered "so stop crying, you've only got yourself to blame.

You will be  a little girl for the rest of your life, and there is nothing you can do to
stop it."  Johnathan knew this to be true, he could only burst into further tears
as he  contemplated what lay before him. A life of utter humiliaton at the
hands of his step  mother, his step sister and all their friends. Their laughter
rung in his ears now,  and would do so for many years to come.

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Re: Forced Into Frillies and Frocks by Johnathan
« Reply #10 on: July 10, 2018, 03:47:02 PM »
Never have I been so upset to see a story end. So well written, and such amazing scenarios. I so hope you continue this. X

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Re: Forced Into Frillies and Frocks by Johnathan
« Reply #11 on: July 12, 2018, 04:45:57 PM »
This story has been awesome to read.  Absolutely loved the breastfeeding part.  Hope to read more in the future.

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Re: Forced Into Frillies and Frocks by Johnathan
« Reply #12 on: July 12, 2018, 07:49:36 PM »
This story has been awesome to read.  pAbsolutely loved the breastfeeding part.  Hope to read more in the future.

This one has been done since 1999 or so. My all time favorite.

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Re: Forced Into Frillies and Frocks by Johnathan
« Reply #13 on: July 14, 2018, 09:27:15 AM »
I have read this on another site, it is still a very good story and so are other stories by the author

 

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