Chapter One
The last flush of the toilet signaled to Barbara--my de facto mommy, that I was finished in the bathroom, having finally spent the warm, soapy two-quart enema she'd administered twenty minutes earlier.
This was all the more obvious, since the door was wide open as it was required to be on those rare occasions when I was allowed into the bathroom.
Stepping out sheepishly, I looked up into the lovely blue eyes of Barbara.
"All done, Sweety?" she asked pleasantly.
"Yes Mommy," I replied.
Daily enemas were Barbara's way of avoiding messy diapers with me and the truth was, I couldn't remember the last time I'd had a normal bowel movement. I was afraid to imagine how weak my muscles might have become should I ever go a morning without an enema. After living three years in Barbara's house, I was now hopelessly incontinent and diapers were an absolute necessity.
Having pulled off the pair that I had soaked last night to give me my enema, I was now naked except for my fuzzy Strawberry Shortcake diaper shirt and frilly pink anklets.
Barbara reached down and grasped my hand, leading me firmly back to my nursery.
"How's mommy's little girl today?" she asked brightly.
"Good, Mommy," I replied, gripping her warm hand tightly.
I felt not only naked but somewhat vulnerable outside of my nursery and I was anxious to get back to where my toys and stuffed animals awaited me.
Padding down the hall, we entered the bright and warmly lit room that was home for me 95% of the time. The morning sunlight streamed into the room through soft, gauzy pink curtains, filling the nursery with the makings of a new, happy day.
My room was decorated much like any little toddler's, with soft pastel colors and a wonderful Disney Princess theme throughout. A large pink and white baby's crib dominated the room, now open and revealing the nursery print waterproof mattress cover that helped guard against leaks during the night. To the right was my changing table, a slightly raised surface also covered with a practical vinyl plastic for my frequent diaper changes. On the other side stood my pink dresser with my extensive doll collection arranged across the top. Inside the drawers were a vast collection of diaper shirts, onesies, frilly anklets, and bonnets.
On the opposite side was my playpen with its soft padded rails and plastic lined floor where I spent most of my afternoons when Barbara was busy. A large diaper pail sat nearby and even though the lid was tightly sealed, a distinctive aroma of stale pee nevertheless pervaded into the room, serving as a constant reminder of my childish incontinence. Nobody visiting could fail to notice that this was the room of a bedwetter.
Stepping over to the changing table, Barbara helped me to take my place upon its shiny plastic surface, gathering a fresh set of diapers for my morning use.
"Looks like your diaper rash is much better this morning, Chrissey," Barbara observed happily.
"Yes, Mommy," I replied, relieved that the generous slathering of ointment she had applied to my bottom the last few days had done it's trick.
Lifting my legs by my ankles, she slid a thick trio of bunny soft cloth diapers under my upturned rump.
"Say hello to your diapers, Babygirl," she said with her beautiful smile.
I giggled merrily as she powdered me generously, filling the air around me with that all too familiar but wonderfully babyish scent. Breathing deeply, I sighed with pleasure as I watched Barbara select a pair of Duckie headed diaper pins.
Today she was wearing a short skirt that showed much of her fabulous thighs--firm thighs that I was frequently bent over, either for my morning enema or more rarely, for a sound spanking. Fortunately, the latter had become much more infrequent although there were still occasions in which she felt my behavior warranted a session with her hard, unforgiving oak paddle. Not one to tolerate any nonsense, Barbara wouldn't hesitate to punish me, whether alone or in front of company if she felt I deserved it. Her spankings never failed to leave me sobbing like a baby with tears streaming down my face and incoherent apologies tumbling out of my mouth.
But today she was happy and I was happy to be her baby. I couldn't imagine a life without her.
As she bent forward to pin the side of my diapers, I gazed in admiration down the front of her nearly see-thru blouse. This morning, she was wearing a snow white top that her big, round, milk-laden breasts filled to capacity, straining mightily against the buttons. I smiled as I noted the smooth edge of her bra, plainly visible from my vantage point.
Barbara was a goddess by any standards. Although she was in her late thirties, she was in far better shape than many girls in their teens. Tall in stature, with a skinny waist and massive, jaw-dropping breasts, she inevitably turned heads wherever she went. All that and a face that stopped traffic with her pretty brown eyes had me head-over-heels in love with her years ago.
But as she bent forward to pin the other side of my diapers closed, I couldn't help but be entranced by the heavy sway of her beautiful bosom. Any other guy of 17 would be rock hard at the sight but that was quite impossible for me. Years ago, when Barbara had first taken me in to become her baby girl, she had immediately taken the measure of placing my little pen-is into a foolproof chastity device which has remained forever locked since that first fateful day. Since then, I haven't been able to get hard, play with myself, or have an orgasm of any kind, regardless of the circ-umstances. So despite the fantastic view that was before me, my insignificant noodle remained imprisoned and controlled, just as every other aspect of my life was controlled by Barbara.
With both pins now in place, the thick cloth of the triple diapers forced my legs apart which I knew from experience would cause me to waddle as I toddled around the nursery. This was not really much of an issue, since there was virtually no place for me to walk to. Confined to the inside of Barbara's house, I spent most of my time crawling around from one side of my nursery to the other. Even some parts of the house were off limits to me, like the garage, the spare bathroom, and of course, Barbara's master bedroom. And with the sole exception of my nursery, Barbara never let me out of her sight for one minute. Even when I was allowed out into the living room, more often than not, I was restricted to the playpen she kept there so she could keep an eye on me.
She was humming to herself now as she sifted through the overflowing drawer of plastic panties.
"Let's see...what does mommy have for her precious little babykin's..." she mused aloud, "How about these?"
Stretching a pair of semi-translucent pink panties with bunnies on it between her fingers, she beamed down at me expectantly.
"Uh-huh," I nodded breathlessly.
I loved the super soft vinyl of these cute panties which were heaven to wear.
Gathering them at the legholes, she worked them over my feet and slid them up my calves. I mewled babyishly as she raised them up my skinny thighs and began tugging them up and over the thick, yet comforting bulk of my diapers. Once it was enclosed, she worked her manicured fingers around the elastic waistband making sure all the cloth was on the inside and then did the same with the leg holes. I shivered with delight as her silky fingers touched the sensitive skin of my inner thighs.
As a finishing touch, she powdered between my legs, leaving a whitish layer between my skin and the vinyl of the panties.
"Well--just look at you, Miss Prissy Pants!" she exclaimed eagerly, "All diapered and ready for the day."
I blushed slightly and looked away, even though my sense of safety and security felt palpable now that I had been changed.
"Now we just have to find a sweet baby dress for mommy's little sissy," she said as she patted the fat front of my diaper playfully.
Standing up, she went over to my open closet and began carefully looking through the vast selection. There were countless dresses and rompers, most in pink, yellow, white, or baby blue.
After moving through the first third, she selected a white sailor suit with soft pink satin lace and a big pink floppy bow over the traditional bodice.
"How about this, sailor sissy?" she asked enthusiastically, "Are you ready for the high seas?"
Despite the beguiling smile on her pretty face, her tone was one reserved for toddlers and children and I couldn't help but hear what sounded like sarcasm.
"Yes Mommy!" I replied immediately. Even though it was still humiliating after all this time, I still enjoyed playing her game if only to bask in her intoxicating beauty.
Dropping the light frilly garment over my head, she turned me slightly and as my arms went through the short, puffy sleeves, she zipped up the back behind my neck. I felt so girly as I felt the delicate pink lace around the short hem and admired the big floppy pink bow underneath the Peter Pan collar.
Kneeling down, Barbara took my Mary Janes and buckled them over my feet which were still wearing the frilly white anklets. Taking my hand, she gently stood me up and had me look at the large, full length mirror permanently mounted to the opposite wall.
As I gazed at my sissyish reflection, I was amazed at how babyish I looked. My hair was short and curly, with a Shirley Temple style Barbara had permed years ago. The sailor dress was so short it barely covered the waistband of my plastic panties, leaving my babyish thick diapers fully on display. And my soft, smooth legs seem to compliment my girlish appearance, lacking any muscle tone or hair at all. If they had ever looked boyish before (and I couldn't remember them being so), they certainly weren't now.
Turning around, I admired the perfect round curve of my thickly padded and pantied bottom. I sighed with satisfaction as Barbara bent down to softly pat my seat.
"Aren't you just the CUTEST little girl on the block?" she whispered with a proud smile.
I blushed again, embarrassed at my own sissyishness.
Still looking at our mutual reflection in the mirror, Barbara bent down slightly to speak closer at my level.
"Do you want to wear some rumba panties with your dress or leave your plastic panties on display?" she asked with interest.
"Umm, I think I'll go with just these," I said shyly, casting my eyes at the floor.
"Can you tell mommy why you don't want some rumba panties? " she asked softly.
"Ummm," I said hesitantly, "cause I um...like the bunnies," I said barely audibly as I pointed at the colorful yellow bunnies decorating the shiny pink vinyl panties.
"Okay Chrissey," she said with a giggle that made me blush crimson, "you can wear these pretty panties by themselves."
As she gently stroked the soft, thick seat of my diapers, her beautiful bosom jiggled and I shivered with delight.
"I love you Mommy!" I suddenly blurted out, throwing my arms around her slim waist. Because she was so much taller than I was, I found my face mashed against her big, pillowy breasts.
"Mommy loves you too, Sweety," she said with amusement, hugging me in return.
"And mommy has a special surprise in store for her baby girl," she said as she led me over to the side of my crib. Sitting down on the edge of the plastic lined mattress, she guided me next to her and produced a slim catalog with a sexy woman on the cover dressed like a baby.
"My little sweety's birthday is coming up and I thought you'd like to pick out some new baby outfits," she explained as she put her arm around me. It always gave me an electric thrill to have her touching me, partly because I'd never been touched by a female except for my real mom, but also because she was so incredibly sexy. Sitting next to her on the edge of the crib mattress, I had the opportunity to gaze surreptitiously at her tremendous breasts that were threatening to burst out of her snug top. Barbara didn't like me staring at them, and in fact, she'd spanked me in the past for doing it blatantly but at the moment, there was no way to avoid it.
"Oh yes, Mommy!" I exclaimed, "That would be wonderful!"
I was used to Barbara making every conceivable decision for me, whether it was what I was to wear, eat, or when my bedtimes were, so this was an extraordinary privilege.
Flipping past the first few pages to a section on dresses, she smoothed the catalogue out over our laps.
"Here's a lovely play dress," she pointed out, indicating a cute little dress with designs of ducks and bunnies on the bodice.
"How do you like that, Chrissey?" she asked.
"I like it very much, Mommy," I admitted shyly.
"And here's one in pretty pastel yellow--just look at all that lace, Honey!" she exclaimed.
"Uh-huh," I acknowledged.
Between the cute, babyish clothes and the warm proximity of Barbara's sexy body, I was starting to become very aroused. My tiny pen-is was starting to throb anxiously and I tried hard not look at the luscious curves of her breasts that were each, nearly the size of my head.
Flipping the page, she pointed out a diaper shirt and chuckled with amusement.
"Oh--here's one that's just right for you, Chrissey--see what it says on the chest? 'Still a bedwetter'."
I blushed with embarrassment.
"Yes Mommy," I whispered.
"Would you like that top, Baby?" she asked in a seductive voice.
"No Mommy," I shook my head.
"Who's the little baby bedwetter in this room?" she nudged me.
"I am, Mommy," I mumbled as my cheeks reddened.
"You certainly are--I think we'll get it anyway--its so perfect for my little sissy."
Sometimes Barbara asked me questions for which I knew she'd already decided the answer beforehand. This was apparently one of those times.
"I just love these tops with the cute phrases," she continued, "here's another one...read what it says, Chrissey..." she prompted me.
I cleared my throat and paused awkwardly.
"Sissies wear diapers," I squeaked.
"Wouldn't that be a perfect shirt for you, Chrissey?" she asked eagerly.
"Umm...I guess so," I replied uncertainly.
"Chrissey--you're mommy's special little sissy and you'll always be in diapers," she assured me confidently.
Looking up into her gorgeous, smiling face, I felt her love for me and I sighed happily.
"Yes, Mommy."
I'm so glad we could share this mother-daughter moment," she said as she hugged me closely. I savored the feel of her plump breasts pressing against my cheek.
"Me too, Mommy," I agreed.
Flipping the page, we got to my favorite section, the page with the panties.
"Baby likes her pretty panties, doesn't she?" Barbara cooed.
"Yes Mommy," I admitted.
Truth was, I'd always had a secret fetish for girl's panties and though it was unlikely I'd ever get to wear them, my preference had shifted to baby panties and diaper covers.
"Ohh, now look what they have here," she said, "It looks like you can get lace around the legs and waistband of any of these plastic panties. Wouldn't that be cute?"
"Uh-huh," I agreed.
Suddenly, and without any warning at all, I felt the cloth between my thighs growing warm and wet. I was peeing freely with a strong surge and I only barely managed to stop the flow. Even so, a few good squirts still managed to add to the already saturated cloth, before I could bring it to a halt.
"M-Mommy!" I squealed, "I just wet my diapers!"
Barbara looked up from the page and casually placed her hand on the warm, cushiony front of my vinyl panties.
"That's okay, Honey," she said calmly, "It can still take quite a bit more--I'll just change you after breakfast, okay?"
I sniffled and nodded, knowing she was right. Even my daytime diapers were extra thick, enabling multiple wettings before a change was necessary. The down side of that was that I was often wearing a wet diaper more often than not.
"Now--tell me which panties you'd like to get for your birthday," she urged me.
"Umm...I kinda like these," I said, pointing to a pair of nursery print plastic panties with clowns and blocks.
"Oh yes, those are very cute, aren't they," she concurred, "would you like lace around the legs too?"
"Uh-huh," I said, too embarrassed to look her in the eye.
"How about some satin rumba panties? Do you like the pink ruffles on this one?" she asked.
My little pen-is was starting to throb inside the chastity tube although at this point, it wasn't too painful, just a growing ache that was making me conscious of my ever present need to c-um.
"Mm-hm," I nodded.
"These would look super special with the pink party dress Pamela got you, don't you think?"
I blushed beet red at the mention of my real mom. Years ago, before she sent me to live with Barbara, I used to manipulate her at my whim. Now the roles were reversed and she never hesitated to humiliate me whenever she came to visit.
"Yes Mommy," I mumbled as I looked away.
"You know, I've got another surprise for you Chrissey," she said excitedly, "Today I'm going to take you to the park and let you play in the kiddie's sandbox--won't that be fun?"
My mouth hung open in shock as I turned to look up into her beaming smile. Suddenly, I felt another strong flow of pee soaking the cloth between my legs again and I cried out in angst.
"Oh!" I whimpered in my high-pitched girlish voice.
Barbara's face took on a look of confusion.
"What's the matter Sweety? Don't you want to play outside? I thought you'd be dying to get back out again after all this time."
It was true that I hadn't been outside for nearly three years. Barbara had kept me cooped up inside here for so long I had forgotten what it was like in the outside world. At first, I'd been deeply resentful and thrown numerous temper tantrums to force her to my will. Without fail, these always resulted in my being pulled over her lap for a blistering spanking. After becoming intimately familiar with her unforgiving wooden paddle, and after countless tears had been shed, I learned not to question her rules.
Some time later, after I got settled into a lifestyle befitting a toddler, I tended to forget about my previous life and in fact, after my initial bout of resistance, I actually came to enjoy being babied.
Now she was talking about taking me not only outside, but out in public where others would see me.
"Am...am I gonna go out d-dressed like this?" I asked with a shaking voice.
"Oh course, Honey, what else would you wear?"
"B-but--everyone will see me--you know...dressed as a b-baby."
"That's because you ARE a baby, Chrissey. How else would you be dressed?"
She seemed honestly perplexed at my question.
Looking down at my bare legs, my bulging diaper and the lacey hem of my sissy pink sailor suit, I was terrified to think what people would say if they saw me in the park.
"No Mommy--I can't!" I squealed.
Barbara reached forward and calmly grasped the large pink rubber pacifier that was permanently kept on a loop around my neck.
"Open up Chrissey," she said with her classic, confident smile.
In my rising panic, I felt another strong surge of pee soaking my already soaking wet diapers.
"No Mommy--no!" I cried just as Barbara pushed the familiar object between my pouting, quivering lips, stifling any further argument from me.
"There," she grinned triumphantly as she patted me on the head condescendingly, "I just know you'll have a wonderful time."