Chapter XVII Party Time (Part 4, Revelations)
[Editor’s note] When I read the end of Simon’s description of the party, I was quite shocked. I never imagined he would go into such detail about what he had done, although he has already proved a meticulous narrator of his own experiences. But I’m sorry to say he was so explicit that I had no choice but to censor one section severely – rules are rules, I guess - though of course I copied it for the edification of the Committee! So I’m afraid you will have to make do with a row of dots and your imaginations here and there! Enjoy! Stella.
I was feeling seriously alarmed now. Sadie didn’t waste any time. She directed a heavy refectory table by the window be placed in front of the fireplace. The girls pulled up chairs and seated themselves on the far side, and at the right-hand end. A few lounged in armchairs. Sadie took up a position next to Billy. Clarissa fetched a sofa cushion and put it on the left-hand end of the table, then beckoned to Betony and Janice. They got up from the sofa and came over to the table. Betony adjusted her woggle, knotted the ends her neckerchief Scout-style, and positioned Janice facing the table. Then she pushed her face down on the cushion, so that she was bent over the table, her frilly knickers exposed. Janice turned her face sideways towards us, gently biting her lower lip in apparent anticipation. Ellen, who was sitting close to her, stroked her head affectionately. Billy and I had a perfect view. Only then did it begin to dawn on me what we were about to witness. I blinked nervously, not knowing whether, in my present state, I wanted it or not. I could feel myself beginning to swell uncomfortably. I shook my head. “No,” I murmured, “not now, please…” But Betony was already preparing. Squatting down, she slid Janice’s knickers right down over her black, lace-trimmed hold-ups to her ankles, and made her step out of them. Then she took hold of her ankles and spread her legs apart. Clarissa, apparently satisfied that everything was going to plan, came over and stood at my side.
My heart was beating fast. Standing up, she placed herself between Janice’s open legs, the phallus poised for entry. She looked as us and winked.
“Ready, boys? Look away now if you’re of a nervous disposition!”
Slowly she pushed her hips forward. It slid in effortlessly, eliciting a gasp, and then a suppressed cry of pleasure from Janice. Betony drew slowly back, and then thrust in again, a little more firmly this time. Janice stretched her arms along the table, and a couple of the girls gripped her hands in moral support. I was so absorbed in the spectacle I even forgot about the gag filling my mouth. Soon she was thrusting with long, regular strokes, Janice making weird little whimpering noises. My discomfort grew with my arousal. After several minutes the regular pumping began to generate a sticky lather, adhering to Betony’s shorts and spattering Janice’s black stockings. I wanted to avert my gaze, but I couldn’t. I was almost sobbing with frustration. I could see Billy was in a similar state of distress, and for a moment that shared misery afforded me a little solace. But then Sadie made a movement. Reaching down, she pulled down the zip on Billy’s bulging panties, allowing his engorged member to burst forth! A tremor ran through his body, making the little bell on his collar tinkle, and he gave a great sigh of relief. I gaped, and several of the girls stood up for a moment to get a better view.
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There was a little chorus of suppressed gasps. Then another performance began. Sadie threw up her hands in mock surprise.
“Goodness, Billy. You are enjoying our little show, aren’t you? However, it’s not very ladylike, is it? Perhaps this will help.” And she produced a length of red satin ribbon, and squatting down, proceeded to tie it around the middle of his member, knotting it firmly and tying it in a big bow. “There, that’s much better!”
“That’s all very well, Sadie,” cried Clarissa dramatically, “but that poor boy needs help urgently! If there was only a doctor, or a nurse…” She broke off, pretending suddenly to notice me.
“Thank goodness!” She began feverishly to unlock me from the column, first my head, then my hands, though she left them locked together behind my back, and finally my ankles, which she freed from each other. I stood unsteadily, not knowing what was going on. She produced a red leather leash which she clipped to my collar, and led me, unresisting, to where Billy was tethered. She pushed me onto my knees in front of him, unbuckled my gag and tossed it aside.
“Your friend needs your help, Simon,” she said, softly. And then, to the others, who were now, with the exception of Janice, all on their feet, “Nurse Simone’s patient is in severe distress. Fortunately, Nurse Simone knows how to relieve his suffering. Don’t you, nurse?”
I looked up at Billy. He was no longer angry or vengeful, just desperate for relief.
“Please, Sim! I can’t stand this much longer. Please! Help me!”
How could I refuse him? The atmosphere of anticipation in the hushed room was palpable. It was a simple thing, something I felt no aversion to, though I could have wished for a less public arena. There was no choice. Without further delay, I leant forward and took him gently in my mouth, closing my lips around the shaft, the bow tickling my nose. I heard someone murmur, “Go Simon!” .....................................
I heard Janice orgasm. She told me the next morning that it was watching us that triggered it.
............................He climaxed at once, with a jolt and a great groan of relief.......................
I had for those few seconds been solely focussed on Billy, on his pleasure and satisfaction, and though I had not had an orgasm myself I felt totally drained. I allowed myself to collapse slowly sideways onto the hearthrug, where I lay still, in a mood of utter peace and fulfilment. Billy himself was still twitching, hanging exhausted from the fireplace rings.
There was a sudden rush of assistance from the girls. Billy was freed, I was uncuffed, and we were both helped upstairs to a bedroom, where Kathy and Ellen undressed us, buttoned us both into soft cotton nightdresses, and put us into a large double bed. It was still light, but Kathy drew over the heavy curtains, making the room dark except for a night-light on the bedside table which she switched on.
“Okay, boys, you can sleep now, yes? No-one will disturb you. You can stay here as long as you like. Night night, sweeties.” They left, closing the door softly behind them.
I lay there unmoving, facing my friend. He looked very handsome in the dusk, his black curls fringing his forehead. I liked this contrast between us, me so fair and he so dark.
“Night night, Billy,” I whispered. He half opened his eyes.
“Night, Sim,” he murmured. “I’m sorry.”
“Don’t be. It’s fine.” I paused. “You know all that stuff she said? You know none of it is true, don’t you?”
“I know. I’m sorry. I was just a bit angry with you, an’ I was a bit drunk, an’ I wanted to get my own back. I’m really sorry.” And he reached out and took my hand in his.
“Billy,” I whispered very softly, “you know I …” But he was asleep, his dark lashes still thick with mascara, resting on his cheeks.
When I awoke I could see bright daylight through the crack in the curtains. I realised Billy was still holding my hand. I lay there looking at him, wondering how he was going to feel about the previous day. I felt completely at peace. After a few minutes he too awoke. His eyes opened and he looked at me blankly for a few seconds. I grinned. I saw recollection engulf him. He smiled suddenly, a sweet, embarrassed smile.
“Oh, shit!”
“Good morning to you, too.”
“Oh, f---, Sim, what did we do? What did you do?”
“Don’t you remember?”
“Course I do, idiot!” He detached his hand and punched me in the ribs in his confusion. And he actually blushed!
“Why are you hitting me? Didn’t you like it?”
“Shut up!”
“Well I did, anyway,” I laughed, “’specially when you pleaded for it!”
That was too much for him. He jumped on top of me and wrestled me out of bed. We fell onto the floor in a heap with a thump. As we lay there, helpless with laughter, there was a knocking on the door. Kathy’s voice called, “Are you all right in there?”
“Yeah, we’re fine,” I giggled, Billy having decided to punish me with tickles.
“Come down for breakfast when you’re ready.”
“Be there soon!”
After we had sufficiently exorcised each other’s embarrassment, we lay there talking for a few minutes.
“But seriously, Billy, last night you kept saying you were sorry. Were you sorry we did it, or were you just apologising?”
“I was saying sorry in case you felt obliged to do something you didn’t want to. But if you did want to, no, I’m not sorry. Quite the opposite. Now I think back, it seems to me you didn’t take much persuading!”
“You were in a terrible state. And I like you, Billy. You’re my friend. I’d do anything for you. Even though you’re “totally heterosexual”, of course!
“Yeah, well, that myth’s been totally exploded, hasn’t it?”
“Has it? Weren’t you envying Betony, thrusting away there?”
“As a matter of fact, I was identifying with Janice more. But in any case, you already knew how much I liked you from that amazing kiss. This is how it is - if I like someone, it doesn’t matter to me if they’re male or female. And I suppose I like sex, too, so it’s natural to want sex with someone I like. And I like you a lot, Sim. I always have. But I’ve never felt confident enough to tell you. And we don’t see that much of each other apart from at Scouts, being in different schools.”
“It’s true. It’s been crap. But it’s going to change now.”
“I know. I’m really happy I got dragged in, whatever else happens.”
“You might want to reserve judgement on that, Billy.”
“What do you mean?”
“I’ll explain in a minute. But I feel the same as you. The two people I really like above all others are you and Sandra. I want to be close to both of you. Sandra’s very cautious. She thinks it takes us years to understand our own feelings. All I know right now is that yesterday, I cared only about giving you pleasure. Nothing else.”
“You certainly did that.” He looked at me with a sort of strange delight in his eyes. “I know yesterday was weird. We were being egged on by all those girls, and manipulated by those two, I don’t know what they are, exactly, those two women, and it wasn’t really a normal loving encounter, yet still it has made me feel very happy somehow.”
“I know what you mean. I don’t want to say the word….”
“But do you?”
“Yes.”
“Me too.”
We were quiet for a bit. Our ordinary clothes had been left on the chair, and we began to get dressed. Our little party dresses were still draped over a chair.
“What about those?” I asked, “didn’t you like dressing up as a girl?”
“Oh yes. It made me feel weird, sort of like a kid, wanting to show off. And to be honest I just love the feel of the material, all soft of soft and starchy at the same time. And the feel of wearing little panties, with my legs all bare and cool right up to my bum. And the smell! Did you notice? I think they must have sprayed them with perfume.”
“There’s scent everywhere in here. Like being in a perfume factory!”
“That big fuss I made about getting dressed – you know why?”
“Why?”
“I could feel I wanted to, and it frightened me. I started thinking, ‘Am I gay?’ I wanted to be forced, so I could feel it wasn’t my choice. But once I was dressed, I just felt such a buzz inside.”
“Yeah! That’s right! I know just what you mean. Imagine what it’s like for me. They have so much on me that I have to do just what I’m ordered. There’s no choice. But that’s part of the thrill. I don’t even think they realise. Of course, I’m always terrified they’re going to go too far, and I’ll be totally humiliated and never be able to show my face in public again. That’s a risk I can’t escape.”
“That must be a bit scary.”
“Yes. But don’t you see, Billy? This is what I meant just now. They’ve got stuff on you now. Do you really think they’re not going to use it?”
“Oh! Do you think so? I hadn’t thought of that.”
“Course! Those two must be over the moon the way things turned out. Just wait and see.”
“Oh my god. Do you think they’ll tell my friends, or my mum, or show that video to someone?”
“No! There’s no reason. If they did that, they’d have no more leverage over you. They don’t want to ‘out’ either of us. They want to use that stuff to make us do want they want. They get off on power, on making us their slaves, on amusing themselves with our humiliation. We won’t be able to refuse, ‘cos if we refuse then we are no more use and they might as well let everyone know the things we got up to. Get it?”
“Oh, shit! Yeah!”
“You may be lucky and get away with it. But somehow I doubt it. We’ll just have to wait and see.”
“What about the girls. Will they talk?”
“I dunno. Let’s go down and see what’s they’re up to.”
We descended the stairs together and approached the living room timidly. Billy hung back, but I took his hand and pulled him in with me. Everyone was there, drinking coffee. Their costumes had all be replaced with their everyday clothes. Every head turned, and we were greeted with cheers and whistles.
“The boys are here! Come in and join us, you little pair of lovebirds!” cried Betony.
“Come on, angels. Here, sit at the table and we’ll wait on you, this time, smiled Harriet. “Did you sleep well?”
“Very well, thank you, Harriet,” said Billy, “and thank you for loaning us your nighties.”
This went down very well, and soon we were being served coffee in flowery bone china cups and hot croissants on matching plates. Sadie and Clarissa sat apart in armchairs watching with wry smiles on their faces, but all the others were so pleasant and friendly we felt like celebrities. I noticed Stella was absent, and I wasn’t sorry. For nearly an hour we sat about, chatting and being kissed and cuddled and caressed. Kathy just sat there smiling at us. In a rare hiatus in the conversation, she remarked, “You two look perfect together. I can see you have something very special.” We looked at each other, a little embarrassed, but happy too.
“They do,” said Rana. “Please boys, stay in touch. We want to see you again soon. We won’t ask you to perform again, I promise! Not for a little while, anyway!”
“We’ve been talking this morning before you came down,” added Harriet. We’ve made a pact. None of us will talk about yesterday to anyone outside this circle, be assured. And,” – and here she produced two fat envelopes – “we had a little collection. This is to thank you for coming along and making my party such a success. And you will find all our phone numbers in there as well, so you can easily get in touch any time you want to. We all wish you all the luck in the world.” And she handed us an envelope each, and kissed each of us in turn.
After many goodbyes we eventually climbed into Sadie’s car, us in the back and Clarissa in the front, and were driven home. We didn’t talk much. We both had a lot to think about. Billy got dropped off first. He just touched my hand and smiled as he got out. "Talk soon, Sim." Before he could walk to his door, Clarissa reached out of the car window.
“Here, Billy, don’t forget this. A record of your day. Enjoy!” And she pressed a flash drive into his hand. He stood motionless as we drove away. That was it. That was the unspoken message, that now they owned him as well. When we got back to my house I got mine too. I slid quickly out of the car and slammed the door.
“Bye Miss Faversham. By Miss Mitchell.”
“And did you remember your new T-shirt?” asked Sadie.
“Oh, no, I must have forgotten it, Miss. I’m sorry.”
“Never mind. I remembered it.” She held it up. “Don’t worry. I’m seeing Jane tomorrow. I’ll give it to her to put with your other clothes in the salon.”
“No, I’ll ….” But they were gone. Damn. Not the sort of thing I wanted Jane seeing. I made my way inside, my mind distracted by conflicting emotions.