Chapter 15
Sarah was placed in the ECT couch and her reins affixed to the frame. Tom was secured to the bed in the other room and could see Sarah as they remover her bonnet. Sarah looked at Tom and although feeling quite groggy she felt nervous, no she felt worse than nervous, she was scared.
âWhat is this chair?â she thought âit smells of disinfectant and has the faintest undernote of urine. I really donât like it. I want to scratch my nose but my hands are attached to these bloody reins. Thank god, they are taking off that stupid bonnet that was making my head feel hot. Why do I feel so damned lethargic? What now? It is that bitch Susan talking at me again. What is that thing in her hand? It is kind of cute, I wouldnât mind having one of those as a necklace, it is kind of cool. Twinkle, twinkle little star..â
Susan injected a psychotropic sedative
âShe is pricking me again, but it doesnât hurt, that bitch canât hurt me, because my feet are feeling heavy, now my legs are feeling heavy, every time I take a breath, I am getting sleepier and I am like Alice going down the bunny rabbit hole. I am so safe and cosy in this burrow like a little cuddly bunny rabbit. That is funny, now I am back in my cot and Mummy has just changed my nappy and put on my plastic panties. I like it when she puts me in a clean nappy because it feels so soft and it smells nice. Yes, of course I like being in nappies, what a silly question to ask a little baby. I can stop worrying about wetting myself or doing a poo poo because mummy will make me nice and clean. Mummy says I have lots and lots of soft fluffy nappies and pretty plastic panties, so I can go wee wee and poo poo any time I like, because babies use their nappies all the time donât they.â
Susan continued with the suggestions.
âI need to do a wee Mummy. No stop it, I am not a baby, I am a big girl. Not I am a grown up. I go to the toilet. I do not wear nappies, thatâs what babies do. No, I canât be wearing a nappy, I am.., I am a big girl, I am a big baby girl and I am wearing a nappy because I am a baby. I need to go in my nappy because that is what babies do. I like wearing my nappy because I do not have to worry about doing a wee wee or going poo poo. That feels nice, I am all nice and warm, it feels really hot and squidgy coming out my bottom. Me baby, I gone poo poo in my nappy. Me good girl. Me suc-k on my do-di and wiggle in my nappy. Mummy change me soon. I think I done wee wee too. Sleepy now, me go sleepies now and suc-k on my dum dum like a good baby.â Sarah blacked out in a deep sleep.
Susan wrinkled her nose â she had one new baby girl with a filthy nappy to clean up!
Tom looked from his bed to his girl friend being talked to by Susan, he could see the crystal but had no idea what was going on because the intercom was not turned on. He watched with almost disgust as Susan pulled down Sarahâs plastic pants and nappies and started to deal with what seemed to be an awful mess. Mary came into the room carrying a pile of nappies and plastic pants and between them they restored Sarah to being sweet smelling, clean and protected with nappy rash cream. He did not know what to think, nor could he imagine what plans his wife and her new lover had in store for them both.
He realised that whatever problems Sarah had just suffered, he was going to be in a similar position himself in the very near future. That moment was becoming closer ever moment his mind dwelt on it.
âSusanâ he yelled out âSusan, can I see you pleaseâ he shouted although his dummy made speech very difficult and he sounded quite babyish.
Susan looked back at him through the partition and was cross to be disturbed as she was settling Sarah back in her cot and smoothing down her winceyette baby nightie that they had fitted on her to replace the pink sleeper that had become soiled. She admired the lines of smocking that ran across the chest in different shades of pink in embroidery threads. The feel of the plastic pants and the clean nappy through the soft fabric was electrifying, and the smell of baby powder mixed with that baby warmth was unique. She was watching Sarah nursing her dummy and could not resist a little smile â she looked so sweet. She looked again at Tom and with the moment broken, she went to see what he wanted.
âWhat?â she demanded with no hint of kindness.
âPlease may I use the toilet Susan?â he asked meekly
âWhat are you wearing Tom?â
âA nappyâ he replied sheepishly and spluttering past his dummy
âAnd why do babies wear nappies?â
âBecause they cannot help wetting themselves and you knowâŚâ
âRight! So do babies suc-k on a dummy?â
âSome of them doâ
âDo babies wear a bib?â
âSome of them doâ
âDo babies wear rompers and have little booties?â
âWell yes, I suppose soâ
âAre you wearing a nappy and plastic pants, are you suc-king a dummy and dribbling all over your bib? Are you wearing a sweet romper suit, booties and a woollen bonnet?â
âWell yesâ began Tom âbut Iâm not a baby, I am an adult and know how to use the toiletâ.
âYou look like a baby, if you were wearing grown up clothes then you might be an adult, but you let us dress you up in baby clothes.â
âI was druggedâ exclaimed Tom âyou and Mary injected us with somethingâ. His bladder sent a signal to his brain to beg for relief. âCome on Susan, let me get up and let me use the toilet and stop all this nonsenseâ.
Susan folded her arms and looked at him âYou definitely look like a baby and I can certainly see that you have a very large nappy on and I can see you have plastic pants on as well, because I can see them peeking out through the snaps on your romperâ. She lent towards him and pulled at one of the snaps between his legs â a large section of his baby protection poked out through the gap. âYes, I thought so, you are most certainly wearing an old-fashioned terry nappy and those are most certainly a pair of waterproof plastic panties that you have on top of your nappies.â
âPlease. Please Susanâ begged Tom âI am asking you really nicely to please let me use the toiletâ. He said, the desperation beginning to creep in to his voice. He tried to clutch himself to quell the pressure building inside of him, but his hands secured to the reins would not allow him to reach. He started to wriggle in order to try and stop himself. The potty dance so well-known to any mother was in progress and Susan could not help but smile as Tom began to attack his dummy with gusto while he jiggled about frantically on his bed.
âOkay! You can go!â she said smiling at him. Tom slurped noisily on his binky and rattled his hands against his reins causing the little row of bells to jingle loudly. âThat is so sweet, I think we should call you Tinkerbell!â
âThank you! Thank you very muchâ said Tom waiting for Susan to release him.
âYes baby, you can go anytime you like. Like any baby back in nappies you do not have to ask sweetheart, you just go. Wet your nappy before you damage yourselfâ she laughed.
Tom felt betrayed as he felt a small spurt escape him in to the thirst cloth. Susan put her hand against the front of his plastic pants as Tom lost his struggle and the full flood flowed out of him. She felt the warmth radiate out across the front of his pants and down between his legs as the thick thirsty nappy suc-ked up his wetting in its soft towelling folds.
âAs I said Tom, you look like a baby, you are in nappies like a baby and now you have wet yourself like a baby!â