Chapter Six Back to School for Chrissie
Strapped into the carseat in the back of Barbara's minivan, I suc-ked nervously on the fat pink pacifier filling my mouth to capacity. Today I was headed back to school, although what kind of school--I wasn't exactly sure. I was dressed no differently than a three year-old baby girl so I dreaded the prospect of being seen by anyone, regardless of the type of school. Barbara had picked out a delicate white baby dress, generously trimmed with pink eyelet lace and a big decorative pink bow on it's Peter Pan bodice. She had me in glittery white tights and my fat, embarrassing diapers were covered with a set of fancy pink rumba panties which had three sassy white ruffles crossing the seat. My stockinged feet had pink anklets and my ever present glossy black Mary Janes. Lastly, Barbara had pulled my growing hair into two pigtails and secured them with pink satin bows. She'd also applied a light coating of blush to my cheeks but I was already blushing at the thought of others seeing me like this.
On top of that, my enforced chastity certainly wasn't making my situation any easier. I'd woken up several times during the night with painful attempted erections that my body still hadn't learned were now forbidden. But worse than that was my time during the day when I was fully awake and aware of my surroundings. Maybe it was just me, but it seemed like Barbara was dressing even more provocatively than before. She constantly teased me with her form-fitting clothes and plunging, low cut tops. I had been on edge all week as I gazed hungrily at her jaw-dropping body, my little pen-is throbbing desperately in it's device but unable to get any relief. At times, I felt light headed and physically weak with desire, at other times, I felt ready to explode with frustration. It was so unfair!! I found that after a day of constant stimulation, the pre-c-um would begin to ooze uselessly from the end of my chastity device, partially draining me but still leaving me horny and completely unsatisfied.
I was starting to suspect that it had been Barbara's plan all along to get me to first accept, and then even want to wear diapers, because of their soft, comforting embrace. I'd never known such an exciting, pleasurable outlet for sexual relief and I was sure she known from the start I'd come to find them irresistible. She'd given me a taste of how wonderful they felt for a chronic masturbator, only to cruelly take that pleasure away.
And every day, Barbara would smile sweetly at me, her touch gentle and loving, as she let me nurse like a baby from her big bountiful breasts. Sometimes I'd literally cry with pent-up desire as she forced me to suc-kle from her firm, milky nipple but she'd only giggle at my predicament and softly pat the front of my sissy diapers as if to mock my desperation. She knew without question that she had me completely under her control and there was nothing I could do about it.
All this receded into unimportance as we pulled into a parking spot in front of the Francis Merrimont Boy's School. I could see normal guys my age, milling about as they talked amongst themselves while they got ready to go inside. I whimpered nervously as I frantically suc-ked on my pacifier, terrified at having to walk past them in my prissy baby outfit.
Barbara came around to my side of the van and after opening the sliding door, unbuckled my carseat straps.
I shook my head and looked at her pleadingly but she only smiled down on me with her usual warm, yet dismissive look.
"I know this is going to be hard at first, Chrissie, but it's important for you to completely accept what you are and be seen as the sissy baby we both know you are deep inside. You see, you're still clinging to an image of yourself as a boy but the fact is, you know and I know that's not the real you. You're just a little baby that needs his diapers and his mommy--and the sooner you accept that, the easier it'll be for you."
I shook my head, even as a tear of shame tumbled down my cheek. And as if to verify what she said, as she helped me out of the seat and onto the sidewalk, I felt a sudden, strong, hot stream of pee escape into my diapers. Squealing helplessly, I dropped my hands down as if that might be able to prevent it but the damage was already done. Of course, between the rumba panties, tights, and my usual plastic panties, there was no visible evidence of my accident but the warm wetness inside only added to my feelings of babyishness.
No sooner was I standing in the open sunlight when several guys looked my way and began pointing at me. Their jeers and laughter washed over me and my cheeks burned hotly. Barbara responded by taking my hand and forcing me to wave back at them, even as I stared at the ground in utter shame.
"Say hi to those big strong boys, Chrissie," she said encouragingly.
I think she sensed I was about to burst into tears because she closed the van door behind me and took my hand, leading me into the big main doors of the building. The guys continued to make mocking comments although as we got closer, Barbara's sexy body tended to have it's usual distracting effect on them. She smiled coyly back at them, her high heels clicking confidently and crisply on the concrete steps before we went inside.
I was looking around feverishly, only to find more guys staring at me in disbelief as Barbara led me through another door and into a separate room. I was vastly relieved to be away from their staring, contemptuous faces and alone for the moment but for how long? Barbara removed my pacifier and just then, the other door in the room opened and a drop-dead gorgeous woman in her late twenties sauntered in.
She was a smoldering blonde with unbelievable pretty green eyes, a cute button nose and full, luscious lips. She wore a tight wrap around top that hugged her full sexy bosom and showed off a deep line of cleavage that was impossible to ignore. Her short, summery skirt left much of her smooth, firm thighs exposed which was emphasized by her strappy high heels.
"So this is the pretty little sissy girl you were telling me about!" she exclaimed excitedly.
My face went a deep shade of crimson as she bent down to look closer at me. I'd always been intimidated by beautiful women and as usual, I couldn't hold her gaze. I was staring at the floor, too shy to look up when her long nail reached down and lifted my chin to look up into her gorgeous eyes.
"My, you certainly are a pretty one, aren't you Little Miss Priss?" she asked sweetly.
I felt a mixture of emotions, mostly shame at being called pretty but I also guiltily felt some small measure of pride by the compliment being paid to me by this incredibly stunning female. I really didn't like being thought of as pretty but if that was what made this babe like me, how could I complain?
"Chrissie, say hello to your new teacher--her name is Ms. Taylor," Barbara said as she patted me on the thick, ruffled seat of my diapered bottom.
Forced to look at the arresting features of her face, my cheeks burned brightly.
"H-h-hi," I croaked nervously and I swallowed hard.
She smiled a devastating smile that washed over me like a warm bath and made my toes tingle. What a hottie she was!
"Hello Chrissie, welcome to my nursery," she said in a light, sexy feminine voice, "My, my...I think you're going to make all the other sissies jealous with your cute, girly looks--you're not really a boy under all those frills are you?"
Still blushing three shades of red, I nodded in confusion.
"Uh-huh," I squeaked weakly.
Ms. Taylor laughed musically.
"I don't believe it! You're the prettiest little girl I've ever seen, but I better keep my eyes on you--some big strong boy is going to want to kiss you!"
I blushed furiously at her words as Barbara laughed with Ms. Taylor delightedly.
"Now that I could see all too easily!" Barbara added, "Do you think you would you like it if one of those boys outside gave you a nice big kiss?"
"No!" I snapped petulantly but I couldn't stop blushing.
I felt so sissyish that it was easy to imagine one of them forcing his will upon me.
"And it looks like your mommy's got you very well diapered--is she a big wetter?" Ms. Taylor asked Barbara.
"Oh my--yes," she replied, "But her next change isn't due until lunchtime and her diapers can hold any accidents she may have for awhile yet."
"Don't you worry Sugarplum," Ms. Taylor smiled down at me, "I've got plenty of diapers and plastic panties for sissies like you who have no control. I'll take very good care of you."
I hated being thought of as having no control but I guess it was to be expected in my present outfit.
"Well, since that's all set then...I better be going, I have to be heading back to work now," Barbara said as she pulled her keys out of her purse, "You be a good little girl for Ms. Taylor--she has my permission to spank you if you misbehave, you know."
Between the two of them, I was crushed with humiliation, but I was even more distraught at being left alone in this strange place, with a bunch of strange people. Even though Ms. Taylor was a major knockout, I was terrified of the unknown humiliations that were almost certainly awaiting me here.
"Mommy--don't go," I pleaded anxiously with her.
"I'm sorry Sweety, but mommy has to go to work--you'll be just fine here," she assured me, "Don't you worry about a thing."
In my rising panic, I felt a hot stream of pee suddenly released from my bladder. Stamping my Mary Jane-clad feet in frustration, I stood helplessly as yet another, even stronger surge quickly soaked the front of my diapers in a humiliating display of my lack of control. My lower lip trembled and I looked up in panic at Barbara as I felt my diapers being flooded uncontrollably.
The combination of everything was too much for my fragile temperament and I abruptly burst into tears.
"Nooo!" I wailed as even more warm pee flowed freely into my diaper.
"Mommmmy!"
I threw my arms around Barbara's neck and hugged her tightly as the pee quickly saturated my seat and began soaking the surrounding cloth. My tights and rumba panties conspired to make sure the drenched cloth hugged my buns and inner thighs in a sopping wet embrace.
"Don't leave me Mommy!" I wailed as tears streamed down my face.
My shoulders heaved and my breathing was labored as I sobbed like a baby on her shoulder.
Barbara sighed and helped me over to a seat behind a desk, sitting down and then taking me upon her lap. In moments, her blouse was undone, her delicate bra unclasped and her big, plump breast was put before me. Easing her firm, milky nipple in between my trembling lips, she pulled me gently to her as she wiped a tear away from my cheek.
"There, there now Baby....everything's going to be okay...Mommy's only going to be gone for a little while today...you'll be just fine with Ms. Taylor here."
I sobbed helplessly and nursed feverishly on the big nipple filling my mouth, quickly being rewarded with a steady stream of warm milk.
"Aww...you poor little thing," she said soothingly, "Mommy's little baby girl is just having a terrible first day already, hmm?"
I sobbed again and suc-ked even harder on her nipple, trying to regain my composure.
"Oh my...Chrissie's already wet herself, I'm afraid," Barbara informed Ms. Taylor as the warmth of my bottom gradually made itself felt on her thighs.
"That's no problem," Ms. Taylor replied, "I'll be happy to give her an early change in the nursery, it'll give us a chance to do a little bonding."
"I'm afraid when she gets this upset, the only thing that will soothe her is a nipple...I'm sorry to make such a fuss," Barbara said as she gently patted my head and encouraged my nursing from her breast.
"Oh, don't even mention it, perhaps I can be of help here."
Ms. Taylor pulled up another chair and undid the knot holding her wrap around top in place.
"Are--are you...?" Barbara queried.
"Yes," Ms. Taylor giggled, "I'm lactating too so I can take over any time you're ready."
"Oh, that's wonderful," Barbara said, much relieved, "I usually let her nurse until she stops crying--you should be fine with her pacifier after that."
Barbara helped shift me over to Ms. Taylor's lap and I whimpered as her firm nipple was taken from my mouth. Whining miserably, I watched in captivation as Ms. Taylor opened the front clasp of her silky smooth satin bra to reveal a perfect, flawless breast; full and heavy with milk.
"Come here Chrissie, I've got a nice warm nipple for you to suc-kle from."
I whimpered in embarrassment but soon began nursing from her breast.
Using her long, slim finger, she brushed away another of my tears and beamed down on me with satisfaction.
"That's a good baby," she cooed, "You take all you need my pretty little sissy."
There she said it again. Was I really pretty, I wondered? I'd always known I had rather feminine features...could it be that with my baby dress, tights, sissy shoes, and a little make-up that I actually looked pretty? It gave me a strange feeling inside. It also gave me a familiar feeling inside my chastity device. My poor little pen-is was starting to strain mightily against it's silicone prison in angst. Was it because a beautiful woman was letting me nurse from her awe-inspiring breast? Or was it something more?
Assured that I had finally settled down, Ms. Taylor returned her attention to Barbara.
"Does she need an enema today?"
"No, thanks though--she had one this morning during her diaper change," Barbara replied.
She remained a little longer but when it was apparent I had stopped my crying, she made her goodbyes and left us alone. I continued to nurse until I'd had my fill from Ms. Taylor's succulent breast.
Easing her nipple out of my mouth, Ms. Taylor gently pushed my pacifier in between my lips.
"There you are Chrissie. Are you ready to have your pampers changed?"
I sniffed and nodded weakly as she helped me up and took my hand in hers. Leading me through the door she came in, we entered a large room, that looked like a cross between a kindergarten classroom and a baby's nursery. The walls were decorated with cartoon characters and several cribs were in a group at the far corner. I recognized a changing table with stacks of cloth diapers and a dresser nearby containing plastic panties and other supplies. On one side of the room were several desks at which two boys my age were sitting. One was an obvious sissy, dressed much like myself and it was strangely gratifying to see someone in the same predicament as I was. The other was another guy, dressed in a little boy's romper with a white t-shirt and baby blue shorts and suspenders. At first glance, he didn't appear to be diapered, although it was hard to tell and I thought I discerned a bulge around his hips.
As for the other sissy, he was very clearly diapered, wearing nursery print plastic panties over a fat, bulky diaper, much like mine. His short party dress was lilac and patterned with flowers and lace and I could see his legs were smooth to the touch. Upon seeing my arrival, he beamed happily, and skipped over to see me.
"Hi there--my name's Joshy--what's your name?" he asked enthusiastically in a high pitched, feminine voice.
I was still a bit taken aback by my circ-umstances and the appearance of another sissy but Ms. Taylor answered for me.
"Joshy, this is your new sissy playmate, Chrissie, although I rather think 'Little Miss Priss' is a better name--don't you, Chrissie?" she asked me as she bent down to look me in the eye.
I wasn't used to this kind of attention from such a gorgeous woman and I blushed shyly, unable to speak.
"I just know you two are going to have all kinds of fun together," Ms. Taylor gushed.
Before I could respond, Joshy came over and hugged me close, nuzzling my neck with his nose in an all too friendly way.
"Wow--you sure are pretty!" he exclaimed cheerfully, as she stood back to look me over, "Do you want me to show you how to do your make-up?"
My face went red at the compliment and offer, as I tried to reconcile my confused feelings inside. Growing up as a boy, I had always wanted to be considered handsome and now that I was being thought of as pretty, I felt sort of indignant and humiliated, yet at the same time, my craving to be accepted made me inclined to be receptive. I was so befuddled and mixed up--I didn't know what to think!
"Matty, come over and say hi to your new playmate," Ms. Taylor told the other boy.
"Hey," he said without rising, and none too eagerly. He was playing with some blocks and seemed altogether disinterested in my arrival.
Oddly enough, I felt a strange compulsion to want to know him, unlike the overly enthusiastic sissy Joshy, who from all appearances, seemed to have an immediate crush on me. There were other differences as well between the two--whereas Joshy had an obvious femmy nature about him, Matty seemed rather out of place here--he looked like a boy's boy, with muscular legs and an undefinable rough edge to him. I could easily picture him tearing down a transmission in the auto shop or playing football on the school team.
I felt strangely disappointed that he was openly dismissive toward me. Why did it matter? I didn't know. But for some reason, I wanted to be accepted by him and more than that, I wanted him to like me.
"Come along girls," Ms. Taylor said as she took Joshy's and my hands, Chrissie needs her diapers changed and then you two sissies can get to know each other better."