A few days later a play-pen appeared. For the first day he sulked unhappily within its confines missing the freedom of being able to waddle around the room.
He was kept in his play-pen at all times, except when strapped into his high-chair or put into the cot for his naps or taken out for a walk in public.
He actually came to look forward to his walks even though it meant that he was paraded around in front of the whole town. He became used to the taunts and comments. He had no choice about his new life. They dressed him in sissy clothes, kept him in nappies and pressed his hair into sausage curls. What could he do about it? Why should he feel ashamed?
That was fine in theory but he knew exactly what it must look like. A seventeen-year-old boy seemingly delighted to be wearing pretty frilly baby dresses, contentedly suc-king on a soother and clearly needing to wear nappies.
One day when he was strapped into the high-chair waiting on his lunch, his Nanny showed him that she had a tub of his favourite honeycomb ice-cream in the fridge. He knew that he would need to be especially good to be treated to a bowlful.
His Nanny gave him his bottle of warm milk. He suc-ked on it happily anticipating the treat. She let him hold the bottle up himself and he continued suc-king away. At the end he tilted the bottle up pointedly to make sure that he had drunk every drop which would improve his chances of getting the delicious ice-cream.
As his Nanny spoon-fed him the spinach and cabbage mix his dangling legs jiggled about contentedly as the ice-cream treat drew nearer. When the bowl was empty he shoved his soother in and eagerly suc-ked on it, knowing that this would please his Nanny. His tummy was rumbling and he knew what was coming but he hoped it would hold off until he had his ice-cream.
When she reached for the fridge he bobbed up and down in the high-chair and clapped his hands in excitement. She spooned out a bowlful and came towards him. “Don’t you just love being a baby girl?” she cooed. He nodded enthusiastically and giggled, prepared to do anything now to replace the bitter taste of spinach with the sweet, sweet ice-cream.
“Do you ever want to go back to being a big boy?” He shook his head determinedly, his eyes glued to the bowl. She started feeding him the ice-cream. He kicked his legs happily and hummed as he savoured the taste.
“Let’s just turn you around”, his Nanny said as she rolled the chair around by 180 degrees. His Granny, mother and sister were standing there with astonished looks on their faces.
He froze. How long had they been there? He thought back over the last few minutes and remembered all his cutesy acting the baby.
He could see that his mother and sister were more shocked than amused. They took in his big pink lace-trimmed bonnet, the soother dangling from his baby dress that he had just been contentedly suc-king on, his pink tights and knitted booties.
He had forgotten about the ice-cream now. “Let’s get you out of your high-chair”, his Nanny suggested and she flicked the catch on the tray and unbuckled his harness.
Gabriel seemed reluctant to get out of the chair and only responded when his Nanny tugged on the reins. He very tentatively stepped down and slowly straightened up. He watched the look on his mother and sister’s faces as his short baby dress revealed the copiously frilly panties and the unmistakable bulge of a nappy underneath.
His mother put her hand to her mouth. “He’s wearing a nappy!” He thought that he was used now to these reactions but this was different. Having shifted to a standing position this was enough to cause his bowels to react. His mother started to ask a question. She pointed at the nappy. “Does he …” but she was interrupted by the unmistakable sound of very messy poo filling his nappy. This answered her question.
His mother and sister were shocked. He stood there mortified, hoping desperately that they would want to take him away from all this. He started bawling crying. His Nanny pushed his soother in with a “there, there”. She turned to them and suggested that he was upset at this reminder of his former life. The use of this term made him cry harder.
“Anyway, if you excuse me, I have something to see to”, she said and they stood back as she led him from the room by the hand. They watched her change his nappy. They squirmed when they saw his mess and thanked goodness that they didn’t have to deal with it.
They saw how he fully co-operated by raising and lowering his bottom without order and that this was a well practiced routine. He continued suc-king on his soother and started to get drowsy as usual after his lunch.
Once he was back in a clean nappy the Nanny helped him up to the bedroom for his nap. He knelt in the cot as she clicked the side bars in place. He looked anxiously at his mother. “Bye-bye now”, she said softly. “It’s just a flying visit.”
He whimpered through his soother and shook the bars, begging them with his eyes not to leave him there. He was feeling drowsier though and sat back on his legs. His mother gave him a sympathetic look. “You’re better off here”, she told him. “They have everything you need – a play-pen, high-chair, cot, changing table – everything.”
He shook his head desperately but started to fall down into the cot. “Sorry honey”, his mother said. “We shouldn’t have come. You seemed so happy until you saw us.”
Gabriel tried to protest but he couldn’t keep his eyes open as he slumped down in the cot. He suc-ked hard on the soother, hoping it would help keep him awake.
He heard his mother say to his Granny. “We’d better leave him with you and not come again and upset him.” He tried to hold on to the bars and desperately wanted to plead with them not to leave him there. But his feeble grip on the bars slipped away and he dozed off still suc-king on his soother.
His Nanny put the teddy under his arms and he instinctively squeezed it tight. “Bye bye honey”, he just about heard his mother say. She saw him twitch slightly as he finally lost the struggle against the sedative but soon he was fast asleep curled up with his teddy.
[concluded]