Chapter 19. On the Beach.
They were nearly back at the car when Imelda discovered she’d left her scarf behind.
“I took it off when we were on the swings and I think I left it on the ground. I’ll just run back. Won’t be a moment. The next bus isn’t due for ten minutes, anyway.”
She dashed off and was back five minutes later.
“Got it?” asked Emilia.
“Yes. Just where I thought,” she grinned, giving Emilia a wink. “OK, I think that’s our bus.”
Emilia walked Paul home that evening. She had persuaded him to stay in his girl clothes, and pack his boy clothes into his rucksack. He was torn between fear of how his mother was going to react, and a reluctance to relinquish the outfit, which, though he was aware was a little juvenile, he felt so comfortable in. Emilia had insisted, however, gently pointing out that he couldn’t deny his impulses for ever – that sometime he would have to acknowledge his feminine side, and that, out of respect for his mother, he should not delay the revelation any longer.
“But she’s either going to have a complete fit, or start drooling over me again,” he complained.
“Maybe not, Paul. She may be more prudent than you expect. However she reacts, the fact is that she has to know, and you can’t delay much longer. How would you feel if she found out from the mother of one of your schoolfriends?”
“Yeah. You’re right, I suppose.”
They had arrived at Paul’s door. He steeled himself, pushed his key into the lock, and turned it. In a moment they were in the hallway. He could hear his mother in the kitchen, chopping something up.
“Come on, darling,” whispered Emilia, ushering him towards the kitchen door.
“Hi Anne-Marie,” smiled Emilia, “I’ve brought your son back. He’s had a very busy weekend.”
“Emilia! Lovely to see you! Paul! Have you had a good time? Em told me you’ve made lots of new friends recently.”
Paul, who had been studying the kitchen floor, looked up at her suspiciously. His mother simply stood there, smiling, waiting for him to speak. He felt his courage returning.
“Y-yes, mum, I have. It’s been really fun. I-I’m sorry about the clothes…. We were playing dressing-up. I’ve got all my other stuff in my bag.”
“Of course. That’s fine. You can wear what you like, when you like, as far as I’m concerned. I love the choker and the earrings, by the way. I’m making a pie for supper. It’ll be ready in about an hour. Would you like to eat with us, Em?”
“Thanks. That’d be great. Actually, I’m starving, and Paul must be ravenous after all the exercise he’s had today.”
“Wonderful. Why don’t you two relax in the living-room and watch TV or something. I’ll join you once I’ve got the vegetables on.”
Paul and Emilia sat together on the sofa.
“Wow,” said Paul, “that’s not what I was expecting.”
“See? I told you. She took it all in her stride. And she meant what she said – you can dress as you please as far as she’s concerned.”
“I’m amazed. She didn’t even call me Paulie!”
“She’s not stupid. She knows things can be difficult at your age. I’ll tell you something else. I told her about the nail polish problem.”
“You did?” said Paul, wide-eyed.
“Yes. And she’s going to speak to the head teacher tomorrow to see what can be done. So don’t worry!” She tousled his hair reassuringly, making one of his bunches fall off.
“I’ll take off your choker for the night,” she added, “you shouldn’t wear it in bed. But don’t worry, I’ll bring it back in the morning.”
“Hey…” he began, then laughed at his own vanity. “I really am enjoying being a girl, Em. Isn’t that silly?”
“No, course not. But it’s not going to be easy. You’ll have a lot of idiots to contend with, if you pursue this course. You’ll have friends, too, that you’ll need to rely on. But don’t be under any illusions. However, you’ll be fine in your pink outfit tomorrow. It’s perfect casual wear for the beach.”
“OK. But I’ll pack my swimming trunks too.”
“Yes. And a towel. That’s pretty much all you’ll need.”
After supper, Emilia got ready to leave.
“Thanks for the lovely food, Anne-Marie. We’ll pick Paul up about nine, if that’s OK?”
“That’s fine, Emilia. And your very welcome. I’ll wash and dry his clothes overnight.”
“So I’ll see you in the morning,” she smiled at Paul.
“Sure. Thanks, Em.”
“Sleep well!” She gave him a kiss on the cheek.
“Bye, Em,” said Mrs Adams, “thanks for looking after Paul. And everything.”
As Emilia walked home, a text came in from Imelda. “Call me after you’ve dropped Paul”, followed by a winking imoji. She called her at once.
“Mel? You wanted me?”
“Yes, darling. I just wanted to let you in on a little secret. I don’t know if you got it, but I hadn’t left my scarf. I went back just in time to catch those boys, and I’ve invited Christopher to join us tomorrow. I said Pauline would be really happy if he came. I thought it would be a nice surprise for Paul – for Pauline.”
“You little matchmaker! I wondered if you were up to mischief. Tabby won’t be happy, you know that, don’t you?”
“Well, she’ll have to learn to share.”
“What did Christopher say when you asked him?”
“He was looking quite miserable when I went back. But when I suggested he join us, he was all smiles. I’ve never seen such a sudden change from total misery to total joy!”
“He’s got it bad, Mel. What’s he going to say when he finds out?”
“That’s what’s so fascinating. Tomorrow may be the day. Anyway, I’ve got his address, and I’ve spoken to his mum. She’ll have him ready nice and early, and she’ll have a word with my mum when we arrive. He’ll be last, anyway. His house is on the way.”
The car arrived at the Adams’ residence at eight-thirty; but Paul was dressed, his rucksack was packed, and he was ready to go. He’d left his bunches behind, and his hair had reverted to its usual untidy state. Imelda’s mother had of course been informed that she was collecting a girl called Pauline. She stayed in the car while Emilia went to collect him, but Mrs Adams came out to greet her.
“Hi. I’m Anne-Marie, Paulie’s mother. Thank you so much for doing this. He’s been so excited.”
“Oh, no trouble. I’m Louise Vincent. Nice to meet you.” She looked slightly puzzled as what appeared to her to be the anticipated rather pretty little girl climbed into the back. “Er, it’s lovely to have…Pauline along.”
“Oh, yes, of course, Pauline,” replied Mrs Adams, flustered. “I hope she behaves behaves him…herself today,” she added trying to recover her error but making a hash of it again.
“Oh, yes, I’m sure… she’ll be fine…” said Mrs Vincent, giving Anne-Marie a strange look. “Well, we’ll see you later, then. You’ve got my number if you need it.”
On the way to collect the girls, Mrs Vincent kept checking Paul out in her rear-view mirror.
“Watch where you’re going, mum,” said Imelda, anxiously.
“Sorry, dear. Pauline, it’s lovely to have you along. That’s a cute outfit.”
“Thanks, Mrs Vincent. And thanks for taking us. I haven’t been to the beach for ages.”
“Well, it’s been a long winter.”
The next stop was Marcia’s. Emilia had fastened Paul’s choker back on again, and he looked every inch the tomboy. The other two had made their way there earlier. Emilia got out to go to the door, and Paul jumped out after her. Louise Vincent and her daughter had a moment alone together.
“That Pauline. Is she…?”
“Yes, mum, Pauline’s a boy. But I don’t think he wants to be a boy. We’re trying to help him…adjust.”
“I see. He’s very pretty. He makes a lovely girl.”
“Yes. Just remember not to call him ‘he’, if you see what I mean.”
“Of course. Sorry, darling.”
“No probs, mum. Shh. Here they come.”
Everyone piled into the car, Tabitha managing to grab a place next to Paul. Mrs Vincent made sure everyone was strapped in, and headed off towards the next stop, guided by Imelda.
“I think we missed the road, Mel,” said Paul, “this takes us to the other side of town.”
“Yes, I know. A short detour. You’ll see.”
After ten minutes or so, they stopped in a road none of them recognised. Imelda and her mother got out and went up the front path of one of the houses. The door opened, and a moment later Christopher emerged, a rucksack over one shoulder. Mrs Vincent could be seen chatting to his mother, after which he followed them back to the car.
“Christopher!” exclaimed Paul.
“What?” cried Tabitha.
“It’s that boy from the park,” laughed Marcia. “You know, Pauline’s boyfriend!”
“He’s not my boyfriend!” responded Paul, frowning. “He’s just a boy.”
“He’s an idiot!” spat Tabitha.
“I’m glad he’s coming, anyway,” replied Paul, defensively. “He’s good fun. Don’t be horrible to him.”
“No, Pauline’s right, Tabby. Behave yourself, please,” Emilia admonished her.
Christopher squeezed in, eyes dancing with excitement.
“Hi, Pauline. Thanks for inviting me!”
“She didn’t,” said Tabby, spitefully, “it was Imelda. So don’t get any ideas.”
Christopher’s face fell. He looked bemused.
“Tabby? Would you like us to take you home again? No? Well be quiet, please,” said Imelda. “It was my idea, Christopher, that’s true, but I knew it would make Pauline happy to have you along. You played together so nicely at the park. Take no notice of Tabby.”
“No,” said Rosalind, jumping at the opportunity to be bitchy when she knew she had the older girls on her side, “take no notice of old grumpyface over there. We are happy you’re coming, aren't we, Marcia?”
“Shut up, droopy drawers,” returned Tabitha, “you’re just happy cos you can’t resist showing off when there’s a boy around!”
“Now, now, girls! No more, please. Or I’ll turn around and we’ll go home right now. Understand?”
Mrs Vincent sounded like she meant business, so the passengers lapsed into silence, Tabitha frowning, Rosalind poking her tongue out at her, and Christopher staring at Paul. Paul grinned back. It’s not so bad, he thought, having an admirer. Even if it is another boy.
They arrived at about 10.15. The road ran along the beach for about a mile, and on the other side was a salt-marsh. Where the road turned away from the coast and headed uphill, there was a little secluded car park, hidden along a lane in the middle of some woods. Mrs Vincent found a place and parked the car. They all got out.
“I’m going to the village to do my shopping,” she said, I may get a bus or I may even walk, it’s such a nice day.”
“It’s quite a way. Mum. The village is right at the other end of the lake.”
“I know. But I’m in no hurry. And if I buy too much to carry, I can get a bus or a cab back. I’ll see you later. But please…keep a close eye on those kids.”
“Don’t worry!”
There was a gate on the west side of the car park, which led into a grassy area of tall old dunes, with picnic tables in the narrow spaces in between. While the older girls were unloading the car, the children ran into this area and careered along the paths, screaming and whooping. Tabitha had recovered from her mood, and went as wild as any of them. Then Imelda called them back, and they made their way down to the beach, which was very long, very pebbly at the top, and very sandy by the water’s edge. The waves were always quite big here, and the water as clear as glass. Everyone helped to carry the equipment, the towels, and the food, and they pitched camp a few hundred yards away from the car park, to the east. The beach stretched away as far as the eye could see to the west, and curled round a headland to the east, where the orange-coloured cliffs rose to their highest point. It was such a long beach, and there was such a small car park, that it never got very busy, even on bank holidays.
Imelda and Emilia set up a windbreak a little higher on the beach for everyone to change behind. Paul had been anxious about this moment since he had realised that Christopher must discover his true gender. He didn’t really care if Christopher did find out, but he was worried that, as a result, he may no longer want to know him. And he really liked his new friend. Emilia was alive to the situation, and while the others took it in turns to get changed, she came and sat by Paul.
“What’s the matter?”
“He’s gonna know I’m not a girl as soon as I change into my trunks. He’ll probably never speak to me again.”
“Don’t worry. We’ve got spare swimsuits. He won’t guess.”
“Yeah?” He looked questioningly at Emilia.
“Yes. I was going to suggest a Speedo, but it’s so figure-hugging I think he may notice if you wear that. But I’ve got a lovely little yellow bikini. It’s sort of ruched at the edges and quite puffy. It’ll be perfect.
Paul looked doubtful, but Emilia pulled it out of her bag and handed it to him.
“Go on. Don’t you like it?”
Paul examined it carefully. It was made of a yellow satiny material, but not stretchy. The top consisted of two little triangles connected by tapes which tied at the back. The bottom was loose-fitting and elasticated at the waist and legs.
“It’s OK. Will you help me put the top on?”
“Course, darling. Come on. The changing room’s free.”
Paul was soon changed. He emerged from behind the windbreak cautiously. The others were already at the water’s edge kicking fountains of spray at each other. He immediately forgot his anxiety and dashed down to join them. For the next hour the five of them played happily, until spurred by the onset of hunger, they drifted back up to where Imelda and Emilia lay sunning themselves.
"We’re hungry,” said Paul. “Can we have something to eat?” With his hair wet and plastered to his head he looked a little less feminine, thought Emilia. She glanced at Christopher, but he showed no signs of realisation. The girls were still eating when Christopher jumped up and said to Paul,
“Pauline? Wanna come and look at those cliffs? I bet there’s a cave there somewhere.”
“Sure, Chris. Back in a bit, Em!” And he too jumped up and followed his friend.
They walked side by side by the edge of the sea, where the sand was firm and smooth. They must have gone a quarter of a mile before either of them spoke. Then Christopher, still looking straight ahead, said
“Pauline. I’m really glad I was invited today. It’s been fun.”
“Yeah. It’s a good place.”
“I mean, it’s nice here, but being with you makes it…properly fun.”
“Yeah. For me too. You can have too much of those girls…er, those other girls, you know.”
“Yeah. They’re OK, of course. But you’re special.”
Paul reddened slightly.
“I like you a lot, Pauline. Just being with you….”
“Christopher… I like you. But you don’t really know me… I can’t explain…”
“Will I be able to see you again after today? I know we don’t live very close to each other, but….”
“Sure. Of course. We’re friends. I think you’re great.”
Christopher stopped dead. Paul stopped too and looked up at him. His eyes had assumed a doe-like expression. Paul saw the danger, but he was too late to react. Before he could move, Christopher and grabbed his hand and planted a kiss right on his lips!