I sat back in my stroller and felt the sun beam down on me as Jenna and Beth continued to push the stroller and chat idly behind me. Unsure of where to head next, they had decided to simply follow the footpath in the opposite direction from which we came. By now my bottle had been replaced by my pacifier, which I consciously had to avoid suc-king on out of a nervous habit. Although diapers had been a very recent addition to my humiliating wardrobe, Jenna and Beth had been making me use a pacifier for quite some time now, and it was only a matter of time before I began adopting it as a matter of stress relief. This worked out especially well for Jenna and Beth since it significantly cut down on my constant, incessant whining (something they had very little patience for). Now whenever they wanted me to shut up they could just stick a pacifier into my mouth and silence me on the spot, almost as if I had a built in mute button. After all, no matter how many humiliating questions they would ask me, it was always immaculately clear that they cared very little about anything I had to say. They were the captains of this ship, and I was only along for the ride.
I was broken out of my daze when I heard the sound of Jenna speaking my name. "Can you give Buttercup a quick diaper check, Beth? It's been a while since she went this morning", Jenna casually asked her younger sister, who happily complied by walking in front of the stroller and reaching her hand underneath my skirt, placing a finger around the opening of my diaper. I jumped up in shock at this sudden action and ripped the pacifier from my mouth. "What are you doing Beth?", I asked in complete horror.
Beth rolled her eyes. "I'm checking your diaper for wetsies, duh", she replied as if it was the most casual thing in the world for a girl her age to be doing to her 15 year old cousin. Wetsies? Oh no, it was just as I had feared. They had officially taken things too far, and if I let them do this to me then I would have reached the point of no return when it came to my gradual slide into sissyhood. I decided to put my foot down and attempt to fight them on this.
"I don't wet myself Beth, you know that. Knock it off", I responded with a scowl. Jenna snickered behind me and began to pat my head.
"Of course you still wet yourself Buttercup, you're just a little baby. Far too young to use the potty like a big girl", Jenna said with a slight giggle, causing Beth to also giggle in turn. I was beginning to grow very angry. This was one thing they would not make me do. I began to slam my fists in frustration, trying my best to look intimidating.
"NO! NO! You can't make me do that, I refuse! Whatever you do, I will not wet myself! I..." Suddenly I felt myself being silenced by Beth shoving the pacifier back into my mouth. Jenna quickly joined her sister in front of me with an angry expression on her face. "Need I remind you, young lady, that I have literally hundreds of pictures and videos of you in extremely compromising positions at my disposal, ready to send to anyone I want on a whim?", she asked me in a stern, authoritative voice. "You may think you're still a big boy but as far as I'm concerned, you've never been anything more than the adorable, helpless little girl I'm looking at right now. I mean, what kind of a big boy would let us bring them here like this in the first place? You don't have any choice in this matter, little one. Unless you want your mother, as well as everyone you know, to see you for what you really are, I strongly suggest that you play along and do what your aunties tell you. Beth and I have decided you're a baby now, and babies don't use the toilet. They use their diaper. Got it?"
Tears filled my eyes as everything she was telling me began to sink in, and I began to nod in response. A loving smile returned to Jenna's face and she gave me a warm, comforting hug. "That's what I like to hear, baby", she said sympathetically. "As long as you listen to me and Beth things will go just fine. We love you Buttercup, and we only want you to accept yourself for what you really are."
"Besides", Beth chimed in, "we both know how much you secretly enjoy this. There's a reason you never once told us to stop when we used to do this as kids. I think you like being our little sissy play thing more than you want to let on."
I tried to work up the courage to disagree with her, but it was all true. At any point in the years leading up to this I could have told them no and stopped at any time, but I didn't. I was too weak willed, too scared of losing the only members of my family who didn't try to avoid me like the plague. And true, maybe on some deep, repressed level I did enjoy some of this treatment; The cute outfits, the constant attention, the warm maternal affection that my cousins now showed me...but certainly not here, not like this. If I had any backbone I would have gotten out of my stroller right then and there and demanded that they treat me like a human being and not some weird doll to drag around wherever they want and do whatever they want with. Yet, I could not bring myself to do it. Instead, I simply held my head down and suc-ked on my pacifier, trying to hold back the tears.
Jenna noticed my sudden mood shift and soon crouched down to my level, enveloping me in another warm hug. She began to tenderly rub my back and moved her face closer to mine. As my emotions got the better of me and I soon began to cry, she in turn began to whisper reassuringly into my ear in a sweet, motherly tone. "Shhh, don't cry baby, it'll all be okay. We're not doing any of this to hurt you. We just want to have a good time at the zoo with our favorite little cousin. You know we love you baby, you just need to trust us that this is for the best. I promise that if you just relax and act like a good little girl for us, we'll all have a great time and nothing bad will happen, okay?'
Despite this being arguably just as humiliating, I found myself strangely comforted by her words of encouragement. I returned her hug and held onto her tight as my emotions continued to pour out of me. Jenna rubbed my back and kept holding onto me until my sobbing eventually subsided. When I finally regained my composure I noticed a few strangers in the distance staring at the strange scene unfolding in front of them, but at this point I was too emotionally exhausted to care. Jenna finally released me from her caring grip and beamed down at me with a warm smile. "All better baby? Is it all out of your system?", She asked me with a sweet, motherly voice. I nodded my head.
"Perfect. We really do love you Buttercup. I know you're going to love being our baby girl eventually, just you wait", Jenna responded with a kiss on my forehead, before returning to her post behind my stroller. "I know it's hard for somebody your age to use their diaper like a little baby, but I promise if you quit with all this macho bs and just start thinking of yourself like the little girl you are, it'll all be so much easier. Just let us know when you need a change and we'll get you into a fresh new diaper right away. We'll change you in a private restroom so nobody has to see you. You don't have to worry about anything, princess. We just want you to have a good time at the zoo being the best little baby that you can be. If you're good, I promise we'll even buy you a little treat later."
Jenna kicked the lock on the stroller and we began to again make our way down the path. Almost as if on cue, the bottle I had drank earlier began to catch up to me and I soon felt the heavy weight of a full bladder. Knowing that I had little other choice now but to use my diaper, I closed my eyes and concentrated on getting the deed over with. After a few long seconds, a warm wet feeling spread throughout the seat of my diaper and I shuddered at the absolute indignity of what I was now being forced to do. In my deep concentration, I could hear Beth give an amused giggle as she looked down at me in my stroller. "On second thought sis, we might want to get our little princess cleaned up now"
Jenna happily rubbed my shoulder and praised me for being such a good baby, and for the first time since these humiliating games began, I truly did feel like one too. The strange, alien feeling of having a soaking wet diaper taped around my waist made me feel about ten times smaller as we began to now make our way towards the nearest restrooms for what would be the first of many humiliating diaper changes.